Tuesday, June 10, 2014

The Killer in Me is the Killer in You

I adore this round of Collab! Like.. absolutely mad about it. I love everything nautical, and the designers didn't fail to deliver in this theme. I'm feeling a little nostalgic today, so I decided to go for a darker mood picture, since.. like.. if you know anything about me, my pictures highly reflect my current mood. I guess that's why I love blogging so much, it's therapeutic to make a picture, let out your emotions, listen to some good tunes, and share your thoughts. I mainly enjoy doing pictures though, I love art, and being able to edit my art work makes me a happy person. Also, I got a new graphics card. Water looks beautiful. I didn't know it could look like that. Can you tell I'm a happy camper about that?

At any rate, I wanted to share some of the cute things available this round of collabor88, say hi, kinda forget about work for a day, and do a pretty picture. I'm gonna go to the credits before I ramble too much. You all enjoy!


Skin: -Glam Affair- Liv skin- Asia by Aida Ewing for The Arcade
Hair: Clawtooth: Under the Sea - Girl Next Door by Bubbles Clawtooth for Collabor88
Hat: LaGyo_Pirate queen hat - Black by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Eyeliner: [KOOQLA] Z-eyeliner (Black) 03 by Rocketta Haven
Lipstick: [KOOQLA] Domino Lips 02 by Rocketta Haven
Earrings: LaGyo_Pirate earring & Rose Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Neck Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo by Celeste Forwzy
Necklace: LaGyo_Pirate necklace Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Top: Tee*fy Isobel Tank XS Black by Azure Electricteeth for Collabor88
Body Tattoo: Paperbag. Body of Roses Tattoo by Kex Blackheart
Bracelet: Wimey: Scholarly Bracelet by Sash Arabello
Jeans: [Cynful] Skinny Jeans - Blue by Cynthia Ultsch
Shoes: fri. - Wayfaring.Sandals (Charcoal) by Darling Monday for Collabor88
Pose: Marukin- Frais

*Slink Hands and flat feet worn in this picture. 
**Picture taken at this location

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Coming Home.

It's been a long time since I've been here. Sometimes I miss it. Right now I honestly do. Sometimes I get carried away, and think that I want to be with others, and then when I do, something happens, and I realize that it's better to be the hermit that I am. I've been that way for a reason. I don't know how many times I have to hit myself against the same wall before I finally learn. So I've come home. Even if it is for a short while with all the changes coming. God only knows where the wind will take me, but this is for sure, I'll be in charge of where it goes.

To those that brought the drama against me, thank you. You've waken me up. I'm going to plurge my life. Start a new. Go back to the person I am, the one that I like, the one that I'm comfortable with. And to those that try to hate on that, I don't give a crap anymore. I cared too much, I got close to too many of you, and forgot that in the internet, the soul factor is lost. It's like being back in High School, a social climb after another, step over the other to look better, and don't care about the damage. I never did well in High School, it's always taken something major for me to walk away from those that I care about. This is it. No going back. Too many attempts, and it always ends the same. I'm very sorry it has to be that way. I guess from now on I'm coming to sl to do the few things that I love. Creating, photography, and shopping. 

To put the rumors to rest. I barely get blogger packs. The people that I "blog" for, they know my situation, they know sometimes it gets tough for me to do things. I've never done blogging for the free things. I've done it because I love taking pictures. I love sharing. I love opening pieces of myself I'm not comfortable sharing in the real world. I do blogging because I love it. I miss it when I'm designing. But I guess bills have to be paid. And as a designer, I'll be fully transparent with this. Why don't we send out blogger samples to groups? For quality control, for one. There are events with more than 3 times the amount of bloggers. I share with those whose work I enjoy, and let others shop. Nothing personal, but I have to make a living myself. Secondly, because we already have a blogger group, and we need to make a living. Sure, it sounds rough, and crude, but it's the truth. I don't go around asking for free stuff, I spend way too much money in SL, and out of the very few things that I do get for free, I'm very thankful, and try to showcase them at least in a plurk to give some sort of notoriety. I feel guilty receiving free stuff, and even with friends, if I want something they've made, I buy it. The rumors of me making that stupid plurk are ridiculous. That's all I have to say about it. I've shown proof it wasn't me. Now I'm saying my peace about it. I hope the topic dies, it's been very hurtful. I have fallen jaded towards a lot of my friends. I honestly can't deal with them at the moment, the thought that they would help the rumor grow, instead of ask me about it, help me figure it out, and whisper behind my back is heart breaking. The fact that they believed it so blindly, and wrongly, just breaks me. I still cry about that, I"m not going to lie. It's been a rough couple days, I've even lost my desire to work. So I hope that's the end of this. 

In hopes of you that don't know me too well, to know me a bit better, and hopefully stop something like this to spread in the future, I've decided to do Berry's meme. So let's give it a try. And guys.. I'm not a terrible person. I have my moments, my flares of anger, my moments of annoyance. I'm human. But please, in the future, isntead of sitting there gossiping about me. Come to me. Ask me, let's save the heart ache. And if it happens to someone else, I hope this is a learning experience of how to handle it. I know for me it is. Not that I would ever accuse a friend that I know wouldn't do it, much less without asking. You defend friends, not back stab them. 

  • When and how did you discover Second Life? – 2006. Old boyfriend who fell for my best sl friend. GO FIGURE! 
  • Did you know about virtual worlds before or was this your first experience with them? – I didn't. I used to roleplay in boards, but it was fun to change over to SL where it was more interactive. 
  • Has Second Life met your expectations? – I didn't have any, so I suppose it has?
  • If you could teleport back to the first ten minutes of your avatar’s slife, what would you tell yourself? – DO NOT PUT YOUR CREDIT CARD IN, YOU CRAZY COLLEGE STUDENT YOU. 
  • How long did it take you to master avatar flying and driving vehicles inworld? – I got flying down fast. I used to only get around flying. Drivng.. idk.. it took a while since I didn't do it when I first got into sl, when I was given a vehicle, I already knew how to move around sl. 
  • Do you have a mystery alt? – I wish I did! But no. I'm too open, and the few times I've tried it, I say it's me. 
  • Is your SL avatar a reflection of you, or someone you wished you could be? – Fully me, the emotions are real, the behavior is me, it's all of me. I guess that's why I fall so hard with my friends, and get hurt so easily . 
  • Is there an individual you met in SL that inspired you in your RL? How? So many! I just can't think of any off the top of my head, but many. 
  • Do you feel it is easier to create stronger bonds/relationships with people you meet inworld as opposed to the real world? – It's about the same I suppose. 
  • Did you ever imagine or believe people could fall in love with someone they never met before Second Life? – I didn't, but I have. 
  • How has your perspective of dating changed (or not) since you started playing second life? –Nope. 
  • How has your perspective of employment changed (or not) since you started playing second life? – Yes, I never thought I'd have to work out of sl, and actually make enough to do alright in my real life and pay for my medical needs. It's awesome. 
  • Name three things in both your lives that overlap each other significantly. – work, feelings, growth. 
  • If you could live your life more immersively in a virtual world, would you? (Kind of like the Matrix) – Oh gosh no. 
  • How do you think behavior changes for people if they’re inworld vs in real world? Why do you think that is? – People are rude online because they don't have to deal with the consequences of their actions. Much harder to be rude when you can see the effect it has on someone. 
  • How has second life consumerism changed your perception of spending habits, the value of money, the need to be “bleeding edge” with fashion?– I'm a shopaholic and do terrible with money. Then, now and always. But it did give me a fashion sense. 
  • Do you think virtual worlds like SL drive and redefine human interaction or do they narrow and limit it? – I think they broaden it and help people with fears like me, though sometimes that's a double edged sword. 
  • If technology progressed tomorrow to allow you to send emotions to people the way you’d send text or voice messages, would it enrich your SL experience or infringe on it? – It would be awesome. Maybe less people would be rude, and people would start behaving like humans online. 
  • Name three skills you attribute to having learned or honed in second lifealone. – 3d creation, photoshop, and fashion sense. 
  • If your grand kids googled your Second Life Avatar’s name, would they be intrigued, disgusted, proud or something else? – I hope they would be proud of the things that I've managed to accomplish despite my handicaps. 

  • So that's about it, I hope you guys enjoy it, happy arcade, and, let's go to the credits:

    Skin: -Glam Affair- Liv skin- Asia for the Arcade 
    Hair: Clawtooth: Boardwalk Breeze - Red eye flight for the Arcade
    Eye make up: [KOOQLA] Z-eyeliners (Black)
    Lipstick: [KOOQLA] Domino Lips 02
    Uniform: .the sugar garden. Academy Uniform - Black Cardigan
    Glasses: Intrigue Co. - Twitterpated Shades: Red for Collabor88
    Cellphone: .the sugar garden. Keitai Smart Phone Sweets Decoden RARE for Arcade
    Socks: .Atomic. Scout Stockings - Pluto 
    Shoes: Schadenfreude Slink GooGooMuck Heel for Collabor88
    Cat pet:  *MishMish* Traveler Kitty - RARE for Arcade 
    Pose: Del May- Minimal Effort. 

    Home Decor:

    Trompe Loeil - Aeronaut Chair Fawn & Natural- 3 LI for The Men's Dept.
    Rug-O-Rama Gacha "joystick" Rare - even.flow - 2 LI
    Apple Fall Interior Plant - 1 LI
    *MishMish* Kitty in Paris - 1 LI for the Arcade
    Trompe Loeil - Vintage End Table Black - 2 LI for the Arcade
    The Loft - Bacall Accesory Tray -1 LI
    The Loft - Bacall Bowl of Roses Red- 3 LI
    Apple Fall Bow Tie Art- 1 LI
    Trompe Loeil - Aeronaut Chair Plum & Fawn - 3 LI
    *Fishy Strawberry* Barcelona Bag Black (hand)
    Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Duffel Bag[Vintage]
    Dutchie Philodendron tall - 2 LI
    The Loft - Manhattan Picture - 1 LI
    The Loft - Vogue 1930 picture - 1 LI
    The Loft - New York picture - 1 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Earth) 2 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Sky) 2 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Sea)2 LI

    Monday, February 3, 2014

    What If...

    Guys, something is off, I'm blogging too much. I do have the blogging itch though. And with all the events starting off tomorrow, I decided that I should do a quick blog post to show case some of my favorite things. I'll be like your Oprah. 


    I bet you read that in Oprah's voice. You better have! Else Sash is very very very disappointed in you. But, first off, my crap. I made some crap. \o/. Oprah promotes her crap too. I don't want to hear it. I made the collar, which is scripted or unscripted, depending on what you want, original mesh and textures as always, and only 70L At the Fantasy Room, opening really soon. Then I also made the snake armband, in bright gold. I kind of did an experiment to see what kind of textures you guys like more, the bright, or the duller silver style. So we'll see. There's so much to learn with running a store, and trying to see what others like! URGH. So hard. But.. that's for we <3 RP, starting tomorrow. I love the dress from Peqe too, extremely sexy. The hair is also available in we <3 Rp tomorrow by Calico, and only 150L. With the headpiece. And another hair style. Total bargain.

    So that's all for Sash's favorite things right now. I hope you enjoyed! Until next time. This has been....



    *Calico* Eira - Fades  for We <3 Rp by Calico Ingmann (Head jewelry included)
    -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    IKON Promise Eyes - Ice by Ikon Innovia 
    Peqe - Elven 2.0_Black for We <3 RP by Inex Hax
    .:Wimey:. Elegant Simplicity Collar for Fantasy Room by Sash Arabello
    .:Wimey:. Medusa's Arm Cuff (Gold) for We <3 Rp by Sash Arabello
    Hands- Slink by Siddean Munro
    Pose by Luna Jubilee - !Bang Stands

    Sunday, February 2, 2014

    Nights Like this I've Become Afraid of the Darkness in my Heart

    It's been a while since I've blogged home. And it's a shame, I love it. Hell, it's hard for me to blog as it is, but I do try when I get the time to do so every now and then, and I actually do love this, I've always enjoyed serene dark spaces that make me feel at home. I think how this room was pulled together is very me, dark, yet comfortable, and with books. I do love me some books. 

    I'm going to keep it short and sweet because I'm falling asleep, but have you seen the new stuff by Trompe? For Fameshed? It's freaking amazing. The materials in it really make it pop and come to life when you kick in your ultra settings, and the fountain.. urgh, so perfect, flows water, and it just feels so high class and relaxing. Over all, Cory did an amazing job with this set, and it comes in naughty naughty adult version too for those of us that are a little extra.. not nice. 

    I paired it off with an old set from Cheeky Pea that I actually love, and used the home from the October round of Collab from Trompe as well, since it's one of my favorite houses, the texturing and materials together really give it a some what peaceful creepy feeling, if you know what I mean.

    I tied it off with some lighting, one from the Arcade from Trompe, and another one is the candelabra from Floorplan that I absolutely love. Tegan never fails to amazing me with her lovely talent. The blinds are by LISP Bazaar, and I consider them a most at any house to really pull it together. They're very low impact, and linking them together will even lower the LI a lot more! Allowing you to give an air of reality to any home. And the rug? Well, that's my all time favorite rug by Lame Furniture. So.. that's about all for this quicky home blog. Hope you enjoyed! 


    :Cheeky Pea: Ansel Sofa - 4 LI by Isla Gealach 
    :CP: Ansel Wing Chair -3 LI by Isla Gealach
    .lame - Kyle's Rug (Rugged) (2 LI) by Divine Falodir
    :CP: Ansel Coffee Table (1 LI) by Isla Gealach
    LISP - Mesh Blinds Wide Long - White by Jazzmonkey
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Wall Fountain by Cory Edo @ Fameshed (3 LI each)
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Chair Charcoal 5 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed
    floorplan. black magic candelabra by Tegan Sara (5 LI)
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Triangle Plate Decor Metal 1 LI by Cory Edo @ Fameshed
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Coffee Table Natural 2 LI by Cory Edo @ Fameshed 
    Trompe Loeil - Antique Floor Lamp with projection lighting 3 LI by Cory Edo
    floorplan. mason jar chandelier / yellow & white 2 LI by Tegan Sara
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Ottoman Charcoal 2 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed 
    {vespertine- old wooden bookcase} 1 LI by Amelie Knelstrom
    Trompe Loeil - Ladder Shelf Natural + Books 3 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed

    Home: Trompe Loeil - Autumn Cottage by Cory Edo

    Sunday, January 26, 2014

    The Path

    Some pictures just dont need any words, I think this says it all, I really don't care to get into a huge emotional essay of some sort explaining all the feels. So... today.. just a pretty picture that really speaks for itself. 

    Other than that, Lark made a cute new dress that i just love, it's such an airy feel, so soft, and cute, I love it. And the hair is new from Lelutka, and the arm cuff I made, going to be released for We <3 RP soon, but.. yeah, it's snake shaped, with color changing eyes, and scales into the model. Yup. I think that's it for newness too. 


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    Hair: [LeLutka]-KATE hair - Praline by Thora Charron 
    Dress: Lark - Savannah Dress Mist - XS by Sienia Trevellion
    Arm Cuff: .:Wimey:. Medusa's Arm Cuff (Gold) by Sash Arabello
    Shoes: fri. - Jane.Heels (Blush) by Darling Monday
    Pose: oOo cheesecake_one by Olaenka Chesnokov

    Friday, January 24, 2014

    Let It Go

    Yeah, yeah, we all know I'm addicted to that movie, and I have all the feels for Elsa, and that's why when I saw this morning that a hair store came out with an Elsa hair style, I was like... lol, bye! So now I have the Truth one that is inspired by coronation Elsa, and then we have the braid style from ^;^CaTwA^;^ that I love. I don't really have much of the store in my inventory, truth be told, but.. I absolutely loved the execution of this hair, it's flawless. 

    So.. c'est tout for today, I just really really wanted to share this hair that I saw today because.. Frozen. That's why.


    Hair: ^;^CaTwA^;^ Mesh Elsa [M] by Catwa Clip
    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    Freckles: -Glam Affair - Gemma - Freckles 02 by Aida Ewing
    Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice by Ikon Innovia 
    Lashes: *MC* "Falsies" Eyelash - Upper+Lower (add) by Freya Olivieri
    Necklaces: .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper S and Mystery 1 by Naminaeko Resident
    Dress: *COCO*_LaceDress(White) by Cocoro Lemon @ Season's Story

    Monday, January 20, 2014

    Fix You

    Recently I don't know why, but I've been feeling more down than usual. I guess it's just the date, and being afraid. God only knows. But as the fear comes, just you feel more isolated from people. Even if it's not true. Even if you're the person alienating yourself. It's an odd feeling to have, and I guess lately I've been longing to reach out to someone, bahhhh. Feelings suck. Fear sucks. Doctors suck. Yeah, I think that's the moral of the story. Everything just urgh. Then when I hear this song I want to cry, because it's like an anthem to myself kinda deal, just.. I don't know. My thoughts are very mumbled tonight. I am so sorry. But anywaysssss

    I put up a cute outfit that goes with the way I'm feeling right now. Just... left alone, and scared and blah. Whatever, pretend the words to this post don't suck. Please? Sounds like a deal <3 Anyways, let's just go on to the credits because I can't think for the life of me.


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 @ Collabor88 (Aida Ewing)
    Hair: [elikatira] Leighann - Essentials (Elikapeka Tiramisu)
    Headband: Noodles - Bearmuffs Strawberry (Natalee Oodles)
    Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) (Harry Hyx) 
    Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo (Celeste Fowrzy)
    Necklaces: .Olive. the Mine! Zodiac Necklace - Sagittarius [Gold].
    .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper Letter Necklace - S (Naminaeko Resident)
    Bracelet L: [tea.s] Regal Gem Bracelet Silver - Pure for Fantasy Collective (Tea Soup)
    Bracelet R: Wimey: Wisdom of a Madman Bracelet (VIP Gift) (Sash Arabello)
    Top: {mon tissu} Joy Tee - Mon Tissu Soiree VIP Gift (Anouk Spot)
    Overalls: [monso] My Overall - Dark Blue (Morphine Janick)
    Shoes: fri. - Lovegood.Heels (Black) (Darling Monday)
    Pose: Marukin - Triple Tea


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