Monday, August 25, 2014

I've been challenged!

And here I thought I would be safe, but the lovely, aka mean, aka, still love you, Fae Eriksen from Fishy Strawberry has sent her challenge through facebook. 

So, I had to rush, because.. well, damn her. I was all comfy in bed, taking a break before the hell of building and texturing starts, and I get that. Might as well do it tonight before I forget and it goes in the back burner. 

Now I get to nominate some people. BWAHAHAHA. Okay, I'm going to do two sets of nominations because one is a list of people I would love to see do it because I think they would make an awesome picture. The other is a list of people that have to do it because I'm mean. So.. here it is. 

I challenge Sienia Trevellion, Andel Rhiadra, and Tea Soup. I WANT TO SEE PICTURES WITH BUCKETS OF ICE AND WATER, LADIES. 

Now, the second set is people that I really would enjoy to see doing it, but I don't know if they would, or even if they would hear about my challenge to them. So I'm going to put here Strawberry Singh, Kaelyn Alecto and Sylvia Olivier with her lovely family. 

I know it's a big list! But I'm going to be donating a large portion of my cash out when it comes in to ALS, so I guess that makes up for it. I did the picture, and the donation. So! That gives me a chance to double nominate, right? Right?! I dont' care. It's my life, I do what I want. I'm a rebel like that. 

For more information about this illness, and to find out how to donate, please visit:

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Hair: *ARGRACE* HIKARI - Cocoa [S] by Rika Oyen
Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 
Bathing suit: *BOOM* Ariara Bikini by Aranel Ah
Hands and feet: Slink Medium feet and Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Fist by Siddean Munro
Pose: Exposeur - Little Hearts 5 by Rubystarlight Writer 

Friday, August 22, 2014

O Captain, My Captain- Depression and Farewells.

I struggled for a long time on trying to figure out a good post to make after Robin Williams passed away. I didn't want to make something that was just for doing it, or writing it, I wanted my words and picture to represent something, to be meaningful. Be warned, the post below will contain personal information, and a look into what depression feels like, and why it's important to be aware of this deadly disease, because yes, it is a disease. If you're bothered by either of these themes, this might not be the post for you. 

Robin Williams' death hit me hard, I'm not going to lie, I still cry about it. A lot of people think it's ridiculous, since I didn't know him, but that's the point. We never took the time to get to know the selfless man that gave us laughs and filled our childhood with warm memories. He needed us, and we turned our backs. We didn't see the signs. We lost him too soon. This is what saddens me the most, and having been in that same boat, and having been saved, just, it's devastating. He was a legend. He was one of a kind. The world truly is a little less funny and bright, but as we've seen around, you're free. You're free from the chains of this world, from the guilt, and the hurt, free to be the you you've always desired to be, and to laugh freely like you made us laugh so many times. Rest in peace.

The thing that kills me though, is that not enough light is being shined upon how horrible depression is. He wasn't selfish. One of his last acts was sending a woman overseas a video of himself because meeting him was on her bucket list. He tried to make her laugh in his most desperate moment. If you haven't been through depression, I want you to take away all those thoughts that he was selfish, that sadness is just something you can cure. Get them out of your head right now, and clear them out. This is what depression feels like.

One day, there is something that happens, devastating, or maybe it's been going for a while, bringing lower and lower every day, or perhaps it came alone, suddenly. Regardless, it feels as if you're carrying a boulder on your back. You can't stand up, physically it hurts. Emotionally it hurts. There's a void in your heart, or inside you, it feels like ice. It hurts. It physically freezes you, and it hurts. But you have to keep going. Life goes on. This great boulder on your back, you can't take it off, you have to walk with it all day long, drag yourself step by step. People stare. You know they're talking about you. Not only are they talking about you, it feels like they're adding weight to this great boulder you have to carry. But you can't stop. No. If you stop, then they'll pile more on top of you. You have to run. You have to get away. And finally you do. For a moment you're free. You cry, you let it out. But the weight is still there. You talk to someone you trust, but the weight is still there, even if they have taken a couple of pebbles away from you. 

The day is over. Now is time to head home. Your loved ones are there. They stare at you. It huts. You're hurting them. You know they can see the boulder you're carrying, and they want to take it away from you. They want to carry it for you, but they can't get it off, they say only you can. But you've tried. Desperation sets in. You can't do anything. You're helpless to this great weight that you carry behind you. You can see this boulder growing, and it's going to crush your family too. No. It can't. It's your burden to carry. So you lock yourself up. Withdraw from others. That way, if they can't see you, you can't hurt them. They can't hurt you. It's good, right? No. Your family complains that you hide away. They're worried about you. The internet, your only outlet for freedom, makes fun of you. They "troll" you. You can't do it anymore. The weight is so heavy that it feels like you're suffocating. There must be an end. There must be a way to run away from the pain. You think, and there is. You go online and you find you're not alone. There are others, some urge you to go for help, others give you tips on how to end your suffering. You're at a crossroads now. But you've seek help. The doctors threw around illnesses at you that you knew you didn't have. You knew exactly what you had. Depression. The pills didn't help. You're screaming and they don't hear. Reach for the rope, it's time to end it all. 

This is what depression feels like. This is the road that many have walked. Some have survived. Some have perished and lost their battle with depression. I say to you, please. If you've ever felt like this. If you feel like this right now. Seek help. When you end your life, and that boulder is off your shoulders, it will attach to others around you. It's not worth it. You're not saving anyone. Go to someone, talk, eventually, the rock will fall, pebble by pebble.

And to you all that are in the internet, stop being trolls. There is no excuse to be abusive to others. To you all that find pleasure in humiliating others and shielding under the veil of anonymity, I beg you. Stop. Some of you have attacked me, with my daughter, and it hurts. You all know where to go to make the dagger stick. It's sickening. I'm glad I'm strong enough to only be mildly hurt by it, strong enough to know that you need more help than I do. But I will also say this. One day, one of those hateful messages you write will end a life. You will be the reason, the last drop, the last pebble, the last ounce of required weight that it took that person to be driven to insanity, and to do such a horrible thing. Don't be that person. Instead of attacking, lend a help, help them, they need your help. Instead of ending a life, save a life. 

Let's not forget Robin Williams, let's carry his memory in our hearts, share his gift with others, and use his last act as a lesson on how to be a better human being. On how you're not alone if you're depressed, and how you hurt the world once you're gone. It doesn't solve problems, it creates more. Let's all be a shoulder for others to cry, let's be humans, and take the monsters and devils out of us. Let's help someone that needs it today.


Hair: + Lamb. Pandora - Variety/Ombre/Eccentric by Lamb Bellic at Collabor88
Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 
Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) by Harry Hyx
Necklace: Lark - Sweet Dreams Kitty Necklace by Sienia Trevellion 
Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage by Julliette Westerburg
Skirt: *BOOM* Athena Skirt Long  Pitch by Aranel Ah at Collabor88
Hands: Slink Hands by Siddean Munro
Body: Slink Physique by Siddean Munro
Shoes: -Pixicat- Royal.Shoe (Pink) by areve
Feet: Slink High Feet by Siddean Munro
Pose: Little Hearts from {.:exposeur:.} by Rubystarlight Writer 

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Bad Things

Ack. I'm blogging again. Something must be wrong, there's a crack in the universe. QUICK, SOMEONE GET THE DOCTOR PLEASE!

Okay, so.. Um, I really don't have much to say, it's more like I've been trying to clean up my inventory  open random boxes I had just gotten in my inventory, and then this sort of happened. I kinda loved it and I was like, hey! It's a great time to work waste time and practice my PS skills, so then this kinda happened, and because The Fantasy Collective is so awesome this round, and I seriously regret not being a part of the designers this round cus rl kicked my butt and made me sick, I decided I'd blog some of my favorite items from there. Also, I had to use some Mandala, because obviously I'm kind of addicted to them lately. Damn talented people. SHARE THE SKILLS, DANG IT.

So, moving on, i think I should do the credits before I start to work waste more time until I literally can't anymore and I loose my mind. Thanks for reading, and I hope you guys visit TFC when it opens in the next couple days, the designers really knocked it out of the park!


Hair: ~Tableau Vivant~ Barony Hair by M4ri1yn Magic for TFC (The Fantasy Collective)
Skin:  Lara Hurley- Fae Milky by Lara Hurley
Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Makeup: NOX. Voodoo Skull by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten) for TFC
Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)
Head Skull thingie: DRD witch doctor mask by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Cane voodoo thingie: DRD witchdoctor staff by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Necklace: A(spine)[MANDALA]SINRA2  Necklace/vintage gold by  菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Corset thingie?: [Haste] Facilier Possession Shorts Brown by Auston Harbour and Harvest Dezno for TFC
Jeans: {mon tissu} Denim - 1929 Cigarette ~ Gray
Boots: *League* Dhara Boots -Biscuit by Nena Janus
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Gesture by Siddean Munro
Pose: !bang- stand 320 by Luna Jubilee

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Big Girls Cry

Okay, so obviously I'm obsessed with doing pictures lately. Which is good, I guess i just haven't had time lately for it, and I'm finally able to, and it's just.. overload of prettiness. That and I've learned some new editing techniques that just make me excited to do pictures as well. I don't know. Also, blame Sia, her music inspires me to do pictures. If you haven't heard her new album, you really should, her voice is completely amazing, and her lyrics truly move you.

At any rate. I just put this look together by randomly trying things on from my huge inventory that I didn't even know I had. I completely love the look, and the clock from Mandala is a nice little tough, it's in this round of Collabor88, and I'm absolutely in love with it! I do love Mandala and the realism of their pieces. It's just insane to me! So yeah, I had to pair it with one of their necklaces. Anyways. I hope you like today's look. Love and stuff <3


Hair: [LeLutka]-CECILIA hair - BlondeFun By Thorra Charron 
Skin: [PF] Harley <Ivory> - FATPACK by Mochi (mochi.milena) (Includes Lipgloss, and eye shadow)
Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)
Lashes: *MC* "Falsies" Eyelash - Upper+Lower by Ŧгєуα (freya.olivieri)
Necklace: Choker_B [MANDALA] by Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Dress: Emery - Mesh Maxi Dress Marie Nite by Sun (sunami.beck)
Watch: (complete/LEATHER) [MANDALA]BILLIONAIRE_Fashionista(white) By Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel) @ Collabor88
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed by Siddean Munro
Nails: A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Serenata by Pho Vinternatt (photos.nikolaidis)
Pose/Chair: Trompe Loeil Wrought Iron Patio Chair  ~ Plain by Cory Edo 

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

When you're alone, Silence is all you'll know.

So I think everyone in Sl knows that I have a tiny addiction to Doctor Who (It's actually bigger on the inside, though) And I've been listening to the soundtrack all these days while working. Welp. Sorry tho. But this song always hits home, maybe it's because this episode is such a beautiful one. You know.. The Christmas Carol, with Abigail, And the Scrooge like old man that had his memory changed forever. I cry so hard at the ending, and let's face it, the doctor marrying Marilyn was also pretty hilarious. But the lyrics, and the beautiful melody of this song, with the magic on it, and all of it. Blahhhh. So anyways, I was going around SL, and I felt pretty, and I decided to make this picture. Basically, and share it and blog it, because.. why not? Collab is amazing. Go buy all the things, kay?

Also, the shoes are for a very special event. <3 Ulaa. It's a special fundraiser to help one of our own residents go home to see her mom along with her son. Her mom is dying from cancer, and it just hit close to home for so many reasons. I'm partaking in the event, along with some other great designers, like Enfant Terrible, these shoes work with Slink High Feet, and are only 250L, and are just gorgeous. I was left speechless, just had to buy it. Anyways! They're trying to reach for 200USD, so let's all work together and help her get there! If you want to donate personally, you can also do so or just shop at the great event, starting tomorrow! Any little bit helps.


Skin: -Glam Affair - Cassia skin - America by Aida Ewing 
Hair: Exile::Letters and lipstick by Kavar Cleanslate at Collabor88
Body: Slink Physique Body by Siddean Munro
Dress: Tee*fy Aphrodite Dress XS Teal by Azure Electricteeth at Collabor88
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed - XSmall by Siddean Munro
Shoes: .Enfant Terrible. <3 Ulaa heels for <3 Ulaa
Feet: Slink Female Feet (AvEnhance) XS - High by Siddean Munro
Pose: !Bang by Luna Jubilee

Friday, August 8, 2014

I've been wanting to blog for soooo long! Just between the health from hell, and work, I've been left out of all the fun! But finally I got to take a break to show off some amazing goodies and just unwind. I don't know why, I just.. I find doing pictures to be relaxing. There's always something that you can learn, something new, but at the same time, it's like painting, I suppose. I just love editing a nice picture, though setting up is not always fun.

Luckily, collab is around the corner, and some stuff from the past from Trompe just fit the bill of what I was going for. I absolutely adore these little guys too from Mish Mish, they're just too adorable. Some play music, some look like they're dancing, but I decided to use the dancing ones to make it seem as if I was telling them some epic story, of untold parallel universe. Also, shameless self promotion, because after I set up the pose, I felt like something was missing, and then I thought.. how can you tell a tale of far off words and not think Final Fantasy? The two weapons laying by the bed, I actually made, and are available now at Fantasy Gacha Carnival, and they're both inspired by the Final Fantasy XIII series.

I don't know what else to write. I'm rambling again. C'est tout, my dears! <3


Hair: Clawtooth: Poseidon's Gal - Girl Next Door by Bubbles Clawtooth for Collabor88
Skin: -Glam Affair - Cassia skin - America by Aida Ewing 
Body: Slink Physique Body by Siddean Munro
Ears: LONG_(L) [MANDALA]FANTASY_ELF_EARS by Kikunosuke Eel
Antlers: [Con.] Birch Antlers by Wavie Haller
Earrings: Wimey: Oerba Dia Earrings by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival 
Top: ~ Soedara~ Berhawa-nafsu by Marbella Pronovost
Cuff: Wimey: Farron Leather Cuff Brown and Black Mix by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Necklace: Wimey: Call of the Bahamut Choker by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Pipe: *MishMish* Pan Pipe by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88
"Pants": OrsiniSun Bikini The Savage Berry XS Noir by Hatili Ishtari

Trompe Loeil - Fiona Treebed Green by Cory Edo at Fameshed 
Wimey: Time of the Mog by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Wimey: Lance of Bahamut by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival
[we're CLOSED] grass field green 02 by ḎЇИḠѺ (mandingo.quan)
*MishMish* Little Pan dancing B - Medium by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88
*MishMish* Little Pan dancing A - Dark by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88
Trompe Loeil - Rivershire Waterwheel V1.1 by Cory Edo
Lark - Atlantis Planter (GREY) by Sienia Trevellion at Collabor88

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

The Killer in Me is the Killer in You

I adore this round of Collab! Like.. absolutely mad about it. I love everything nautical, and the designers didn't fail to deliver in this theme. I'm feeling a little nostalgic today, so I decided to go for a darker mood picture, since.. like.. if you know anything about me, my pictures highly reflect my current mood. I guess that's why I love blogging so much, it's therapeutic to make a picture, let out your emotions, listen to some good tunes, and share your thoughts. I mainly enjoy doing pictures though, I love art, and being able to edit my art work makes me a happy person. Also, I got a new graphics card. Water looks beautiful. I didn't know it could look like that. Can you tell I'm a happy camper about that?

At any rate, I wanted to share some of the cute things available this round of collabor88, say hi, kinda forget about work for a day, and do a pretty picture. I'm gonna go to the credits before I ramble too much. You all enjoy!


Skin: -Glam Affair- Liv skin- Asia by Aida Ewing for The Arcade
Hair: Clawtooth: Under the Sea - Girl Next Door by Bubbles Clawtooth for Collabor88
Hat: LaGyo_Pirate queen hat - Black by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Eyeliner: [KOOQLA] Z-eyeliner (Black) 03 by Rocketta Haven
Lipstick: [KOOQLA] Domino Lips 02 by Rocketta Haven
Earrings: LaGyo_Pirate earring & Rose Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Neck Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo by Celeste Forwzy
Necklace: LaGyo_Pirate necklace Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88
Top: Tee*fy Isobel Tank XS Black by Azure Electricteeth for Collabor88
Body Tattoo: Paperbag. Body of Roses Tattoo by Kex Blackheart
Bracelet: Wimey: Scholarly Bracelet by Sash Arabello
Jeans: [Cynful] Skinny Jeans - Blue by Cynthia Ultsch
Shoes: fri. - Wayfaring.Sandals (Charcoal) by Darling Monday for Collabor88
Pose: Marukin- Frais

*Slink Hands and flat feet worn in this picture. 
**Picture taken at this location

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Coming Home.

It's been a long time since I've been here. Sometimes I miss it. Right now I honestly do. Sometimes I get carried away, and think that I want to be with others, and then when I do, something happens, and I realize that it's better to be the hermit that I am. I've been that way for a reason. I don't know how many times I have to hit myself against the same wall before I finally learn. So I've come home. Even if it is for a short while with all the changes coming. God only knows where the wind will take me, but this is for sure, I'll be in charge of where it goes.

To those that brought the drama against me, thank you. You've waken me up. I'm going to plurge my life. Start a new. Go back to the person I am, the one that I like, the one that I'm comfortable with. And to those that try to hate on that, I don't give a crap anymore. I cared too much, I got close to too many of you, and forgot that in the internet, the soul factor is lost. It's like being back in High School, a social climb after another, step over the other to look better, and don't care about the damage. I never did well in High School, it's always taken something major for me to walk away from those that I care about. This is it. No going back. Too many attempts, and it always ends the same. I'm very sorry it has to be that way. I guess from now on I'm coming to sl to do the few things that I love. Creating, photography, and shopping. 

To put the rumors to rest. I barely get blogger packs. The people that I "blog" for, they know my situation, they know sometimes it gets tough for me to do things. I've never done blogging for the free things. I've done it because I love taking pictures. I love sharing. I love opening pieces of myself I'm not comfortable sharing in the real world. I do blogging because I love it. I miss it when I'm designing. But I guess bills have to be paid. And as a designer, I'll be fully transparent with this. Why don't we send out blogger samples to groups? For quality control, for one. There are events with more than 3 times the amount of bloggers. I share with those whose work I enjoy, and let others shop. Nothing personal, but I have to make a living myself. Secondly, because we already have a blogger group, and we need to make a living. Sure, it sounds rough, and crude, but it's the truth. I don't go around asking for free stuff, I spend way too much money in SL, and out of the very few things that I do get for free, I'm very thankful, and try to showcase them at least in a plurk to give some sort of notoriety. I feel guilty receiving free stuff, and even with friends, if I want something they've made, I buy it. The rumors of me making that stupid plurk are ridiculous. That's all I have to say about it. I've shown proof it wasn't me. Now I'm saying my peace about it. I hope the topic dies, it's been very hurtful. I have fallen jaded towards a lot of my friends. I honestly can't deal with them at the moment, the thought that they would help the rumor grow, instead of ask me about it, help me figure it out, and whisper behind my back is heart breaking. The fact that they believed it so blindly, and wrongly, just breaks me. I still cry about that, I"m not going to lie. It's been a rough couple days, I've even lost my desire to work. So I hope that's the end of this. 

In hopes of you that don't know me too well, to know me a bit better, and hopefully stop something like this to spread in the future, I've decided to do Berry's meme. So let's give it a try. And guys.. I'm not a terrible person. I have my moments, my flares of anger, my moments of annoyance. I'm human. But please, in the future, isntead of sitting there gossiping about me. Come to me. Ask me, let's save the heart ache. And if it happens to someone else, I hope this is a learning experience of how to handle it. I know for me it is. Not that I would ever accuse a friend that I know wouldn't do it, much less without asking. You defend friends, not back stab them. 

  • When and how did you discover Second Life? – 2006. Old boyfriend who fell for my best sl friend. GO FIGURE! 
  • Did you know about virtual worlds before or was this your first experience with them? – I didn't. I used to roleplay in boards, but it was fun to change over to SL where it was more interactive. 
  • Has Second Life met your expectations? – I didn't have any, so I suppose it has?
  • If you could teleport back to the first ten minutes of your avatar’s slife, what would you tell yourself? – DO NOT PUT YOUR CREDIT CARD IN, YOU CRAZY COLLEGE STUDENT YOU. 
  • How long did it take you to master avatar flying and driving vehicles inworld? – I got flying down fast. I used to only get around flying. Drivng.. idk.. it took a while since I didn't do it when I first got into sl, when I was given a vehicle, I already knew how to move around sl. 
  • Do you have a mystery alt? – I wish I did! But no. I'm too open, and the few times I've tried it, I say it's me. 
  • Is your SL avatar a reflection of you, or someone you wished you could be? – Fully me, the emotions are real, the behavior is me, it's all of me. I guess that's why I fall so hard with my friends, and get hurt so easily . 
  • Is there an individual you met in SL that inspired you in your RL? How? So many! I just can't think of any off the top of my head, but many. 
  • Do you feel it is easier to create stronger bonds/relationships with people you meet inworld as opposed to the real world? – It's about the same I suppose. 
  • Did you ever imagine or believe people could fall in love with someone they never met before Second Life? – I didn't, but I have. 
  • How has your perspective of dating changed (or not) since you started playing second life? –Nope. 
  • How has your perspective of employment changed (or not) since you started playing second life? – Yes, I never thought I'd have to work out of sl, and actually make enough to do alright in my real life and pay for my medical needs. It's awesome. 
  • Name three things in both your lives that overlap each other significantly. – work, feelings, growth. 
  • If you could live your life more immersively in a virtual world, would you? (Kind of like the Matrix) – Oh gosh no. 
  • How do you think behavior changes for people if they’re inworld vs in real world? Why do you think that is? – People are rude online because they don't have to deal with the consequences of their actions. Much harder to be rude when you can see the effect it has on someone. 
  • How has second life consumerism changed your perception of spending habits, the value of money, the need to be “bleeding edge” with fashion?– I'm a shopaholic and do terrible with money. Then, now and always. But it did give me a fashion sense. 
  • Do you think virtual worlds like SL drive and redefine human interaction or do they narrow and limit it? – I think they broaden it and help people with fears like me, though sometimes that's a double edged sword. 
  • If technology progressed tomorrow to allow you to send emotions to people the way you’d send text or voice messages, would it enrich your SL experience or infringe on it? – It would be awesome. Maybe less people would be rude, and people would start behaving like humans online. 
  • Name three skills you attribute to having learned or honed in second lifealone. – 3d creation, photoshop, and fashion sense. 
  • If your grand kids googled your Second Life Avatar’s name, would they be intrigued, disgusted, proud or something else? – I hope they would be proud of the things that I've managed to accomplish despite my handicaps. 

  • So that's about it, I hope you guys enjoy it, happy arcade, and, let's go to the credits:

    Skin: -Glam Affair- Liv skin- Asia for the Arcade 
    Hair: Clawtooth: Boardwalk Breeze - Red eye flight for the Arcade
    Eye make up: [KOOQLA] Z-eyeliners (Black)
    Lipstick: [KOOQLA] Domino Lips 02
    Uniform: .the sugar garden. Academy Uniform - Black Cardigan
    Glasses: Intrigue Co. - Twitterpated Shades: Red for Collabor88
    Cellphone: .the sugar garden. Keitai Smart Phone Sweets Decoden RARE for Arcade
    Socks: .Atomic. Scout Stockings - Pluto 
    Shoes: Schadenfreude Slink GooGooMuck Heel for Collabor88
    Cat pet:  *MishMish* Traveler Kitty - RARE for Arcade 
    Pose: Del May- Minimal Effort. 

    Home Decor:

    Trompe Loeil - Aeronaut Chair Fawn & Natural- 3 LI for The Men's Dept.
    Rug-O-Rama Gacha "joystick" Rare - even.flow - 2 LI
    Apple Fall Interior Plant - 1 LI
    *MishMish* Kitty in Paris - 1 LI for the Arcade
    Trompe Loeil - Vintage End Table Black - 2 LI for the Arcade
    The Loft - Bacall Accesory Tray -1 LI
    The Loft - Bacall Bowl of Roses Red- 3 LI
    Apple Fall Bow Tie Art- 1 LI
    Trompe Loeil - Aeronaut Chair Plum & Fawn - 3 LI
    *Fishy Strawberry* Barcelona Bag Black (hand)
    Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Duffel Bag[Vintage]
    Dutchie Philodendron tall - 2 LI
    The Loft - Manhattan Picture - 1 LI
    The Loft - Vogue 1930 picture - 1 LI
    The Loft - New York picture - 1 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Earth) 2 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Sky) 2 LI
    Lark - Inara Lamp (Sea)2 LI

    Monday, February 3, 2014

    What If...

    Guys, something is off, I'm blogging too much. I do have the blogging itch though. And with all the events starting off tomorrow, I decided that I should do a quick blog post to show case some of my favorite things. I'll be like your Oprah. 


    I bet you read that in Oprah's voice. You better have! Else Sash is very very very disappointed in you. But, first off, my crap. I made some crap. \o/. Oprah promotes her crap too. I don't want to hear it. I made the collar, which is scripted or unscripted, depending on what you want, original mesh and textures as always, and only 70L At the Fantasy Room, opening really soon. Then I also made the snake armband, in bright gold. I kind of did an experiment to see what kind of textures you guys like more, the bright, or the duller silver style. So we'll see. There's so much to learn with running a store, and trying to see what others like! URGH. So hard. But.. that's for we <3 RP, starting tomorrow. I love the dress from Peqe too, extremely sexy. The hair is also available in we <3 Rp tomorrow by Calico, and only 150L. With the headpiece. And another hair style. Total bargain.

    So that's all for Sash's favorite things right now. I hope you enjoyed! Until next time. This has been....



    *Calico* Eira - Fades  for We <3 Rp by Calico Ingmann (Head jewelry included)
    -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    IKON Promise Eyes - Ice by Ikon Innovia 
    Peqe - Elven 2.0_Black for We <3 RP by Inex Hax
    .:Wimey:. Elegant Simplicity Collar for Fantasy Room by Sash Arabello
    .:Wimey:. Medusa's Arm Cuff (Gold) for We <3 Rp by Sash Arabello
    Hands- Slink by Siddean Munro
    Pose by Luna Jubilee - !Bang Stands

    Sunday, February 2, 2014

    Nights Like this I've Become Afraid of the Darkness in my Heart

    It's been a while since I've blogged home. And it's a shame, I love it. Hell, it's hard for me to blog as it is, but I do try when I get the time to do so every now and then, and I actually do love this, I've always enjoyed serene dark spaces that make me feel at home. I think how this room was pulled together is very me, dark, yet comfortable, and with books. I do love me some books. 

    I'm going to keep it short and sweet because I'm falling asleep, but have you seen the new stuff by Trompe? For Fameshed? It's freaking amazing. The materials in it really make it pop and come to life when you kick in your ultra settings, and the fountain.. urgh, so perfect, flows water, and it just feels so high class and relaxing. Over all, Cory did an amazing job with this set, and it comes in naughty naughty adult version too for those of us that are a little extra.. not nice. 

    I paired it off with an old set from Cheeky Pea that I actually love, and used the home from the October round of Collab from Trompe as well, since it's one of my favorite houses, the texturing and materials together really give it a some what peaceful creepy feeling, if you know what I mean.

    I tied it off with some lighting, one from the Arcade from Trompe, and another one is the candelabra from Floorplan that I absolutely love. Tegan never fails to amazing me with her lovely talent. The blinds are by LISP Bazaar, and I consider them a most at any house to really pull it together. They're very low impact, and linking them together will even lower the LI a lot more! Allowing you to give an air of reality to any home. And the rug? Well, that's my all time favorite rug by Lame Furniture. So.. that's about all for this quicky home blog. Hope you enjoyed! 


    :Cheeky Pea: Ansel Sofa - 4 LI by Isla Gealach 
    :CP: Ansel Wing Chair -3 LI by Isla Gealach
    .lame - Kyle's Rug (Rugged) (2 LI) by Divine Falodir
    :CP: Ansel Coffee Table (1 LI) by Isla Gealach
    LISP - Mesh Blinds Wide Long - White by Jazzmonkey
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Wall Fountain by Cory Edo @ Fameshed (3 LI each)
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Chair Charcoal 5 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed
    floorplan. black magic candelabra by Tegan Sara (5 LI)
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Triangle Plate Decor Metal 1 LI by Cory Edo @ Fameshed
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Coffee Table Natural 2 LI by Cory Edo @ Fameshed 
    Trompe Loeil - Antique Floor Lamp with projection lighting 3 LI by Cory Edo
    floorplan. mason jar chandelier / yellow & white 2 LI by Tegan Sara
    Trompe Loeil - Ines Ottoman Charcoal 2 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed 
    {vespertine- old wooden bookcase} 1 LI by Amelie Knelstrom
    Trompe Loeil - Ladder Shelf Natural + Books 3 LI by Cory Edo @Fameshed

    Home: Trompe Loeil - Autumn Cottage by Cory Edo

    Sunday, January 26, 2014

    The Path

    Some pictures just dont need any words, I think this says it all, I really don't care to get into a huge emotional essay of some sort explaining all the feels. So... today.. just a pretty picture that really speaks for itself. 

    Other than that, Lark made a cute new dress that i just love, it's such an airy feel, so soft, and cute, I love it. And the hair is new from Lelutka, and the arm cuff I made, going to be released for We <3 RP soon, but.. yeah, it's snake shaped, with color changing eyes, and scales into the model. Yup. I think that's it for newness too. 


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    Hair: [LeLutka]-KATE hair - Praline by Thora Charron 
    Dress: Lark - Savannah Dress Mist - XS by Sienia Trevellion
    Arm Cuff: .:Wimey:. Medusa's Arm Cuff (Gold) by Sash Arabello
    Shoes: fri. - Jane.Heels (Blush) by Darling Monday
    Pose: oOo cheesecake_one by Olaenka Chesnokov

    Friday, January 24, 2014

    Let It Go

    Yeah, yeah, we all know I'm addicted to that movie, and I have all the feels for Elsa, and that's why when I saw this morning that a hair store came out with an Elsa hair style, I was like... lol, bye! So now I have the Truth one that is inspired by coronation Elsa, and then we have the braid style from ^;^CaTwA^;^ that I love. I don't really have much of the store in my inventory, truth be told, but.. I absolutely loved the execution of this hair, it's flawless. 

    So.. c'est tout for today, I just really really wanted to share this hair that I saw today because.. Frozen. That's why.


    Hair: ^;^CaTwA^;^ Mesh Elsa [M] by Catwa Clip
    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing
    Freckles: -Glam Affair - Gemma - Freckles 02 by Aida Ewing
    Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice by Ikon Innovia 
    Lashes: *MC* "Falsies" Eyelash - Upper+Lower (add) by Freya Olivieri
    Necklaces: .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper S and Mystery 1 by Naminaeko Resident
    Dress: *COCO*_LaceDress(White) by Cocoro Lemon @ Season's Story

    Monday, January 20, 2014

    Fix You

    Recently I don't know why, but I've been feeling more down than usual. I guess it's just the date, and being afraid. God only knows. But as the fear comes, just you feel more isolated from people. Even if it's not true. Even if you're the person alienating yourself. It's an odd feeling to have, and I guess lately I've been longing to reach out to someone, bahhhh. Feelings suck. Fear sucks. Doctors suck. Yeah, I think that's the moral of the story. Everything just urgh. Then when I hear this song I want to cry, because it's like an anthem to myself kinda deal, just.. I don't know. My thoughts are very mumbled tonight. I am so sorry. But anywaysssss

    I put up a cute outfit that goes with the way I'm feeling right now. Just... left alone, and scared and blah. Whatever, pretend the words to this post don't suck. Please? Sounds like a deal <3 Anyways, let's just go on to the credits because I can't think for the life of me.


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 @ Collabor88 (Aida Ewing)
    Hair: [elikatira] Leighann - Essentials (Elikapeka Tiramisu)
    Headband: Noodles - Bearmuffs Strawberry (Natalee Oodles)
    Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) (Harry Hyx) 
    Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo (Celeste Fowrzy)
    Necklaces: .Olive. the Mine! Zodiac Necklace - Sagittarius [Gold].
    .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper Letter Necklace - S (Naminaeko Resident)
    Bracelet L: [tea.s] Regal Gem Bracelet Silver - Pure for Fantasy Collective (Tea Soup)
    Bracelet R: Wimey: Wisdom of a Madman Bracelet (VIP Gift) (Sash Arabello)
    Top: {mon tissu} Joy Tee - Mon Tissu Soiree VIP Gift (Anouk Spot)
    Overalls: [monso] My Overall - Dark Blue (Morphine Janick)
    Shoes: fri. - Lovegood.Heels (Black) (Darling Monday)
    Pose: Marukin - Triple Tea

    Sunday, January 19, 2014


    So, there's two things in my agenda today before I head into the oblivion that sucks out my life that we call here "the hospital". I'm going to be gone for a little bit, I hope, but just in case, I wanted to do one last blog post before heading out, just because I missed working on pictures really, and there are two things that stole my attention today. First off...

    Monday Meme. Oh, and Berry. It's after midnight. Hence... I did do the blog in time. You know. On Monday. UNLIKE SOME OF US. Kidding. I have nothing but love for that wonderful mango loving woman. But today, it's all about what huds and what not we use in SL in order to make it easier to take pictures. So Im posting my raw shot with the things that I use in here so you can see what my interface is when I take pictures. And just why the heck I lag out so much.

    1. Anypose: Berry blogged this one too but it's just that amazing, okay? It lets you control your eyes, no more blinking while taking pics, and it lets you have facial expressions if you want too. Amazeballs.

    2. Animare: How many times have you gotten your hand stuck in your skirt, or something? It majorly sucks! And it's like.. 30 minutes AT LEAST to properly fix in photoshop, or do the layering trick with PS where you have to take more than one shot. But let's face it, it takes away from your shadows, and it messes up everything in the world. 

    3. Kokopelli HUD: This HUD is actually free, and though I'd like to be able to organize it, let's be honest like.. I never will, I'd rather just endless scroll through there if I'm out taking a picture and let people laugh at me. I think that HUD has about 200 poses, and still no where even near the cap.

    4. Phototools. It comes in Firestorm, and I use it to do a quick shot with shadows, most of the time I'll just layer that shot on top of this one, and just keep the shadows, saves me time and what not. And I love that phototools just lets you adapt everything graphic wise in one little window. Makes firestorm my go to place for pictures, even though it's laggier. 

    My second theme of the day has to do with... well. .feeling alienated, really. It's no secret that I used to be a huge rp'er. I miss it to this day, so so much, but with blogging and designing, I just don't have time for anything anymore. But I still do have a twitter account, where I follow some of my old friends that rp. Sometimes it's hilarious, and I wonder really if I used to look that crazy rp'ing, because, I swear, as an outsider reading these, you'd think this is a bad episode of some badly scripted reality show.

    But here's the thing though, I was looking there, and came across something that I personally found offensive. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything, but at any rate I did. I said that it was offensive, and their reply was "Oh, it's just an rp post. I'm fat too". I had to stop for a second. Hold on. So let me get this straight. The fact that you're rp'ing makes it okay to be insulting towards others? Or post things that can be insutling? And why does it matter your size, or color, or anything? I honestly think, it's like the "n" word. If you don't want other people calling you it, then you shouldn't call others of your race it either. Just.. no. It's wrong. At least I feel that way. So I have to wonder now.. just.. where do we draw the line?

    Putting aside the second issue, let's focus on how far can we go with our words and actions to be offensive, and still be okay with it being just a character. My belief is, if you say it, you feel at least in a part inside of you that it's true. Regardless of a character or not, you're giving credibility to the problem. Now, there are other people aside of you that read that, people that don't rp, people that don't know even what rp is. And when they read these things, they take it to heart. You hurt them. Even while rp'ing. Your actions and words ic can break someone oocly. Now.. it might just be me, I don't know. Maybe I've just been away from RP for too long now, but this is genuinely how I feel. So I just have to pose this question.. just how far is too far on what we say in an RP account?


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 @ Collabor88 (Aida Ewing)
    Hair: [e] Richelle - Essentials (Elikapeka Tiramisu)
    Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice (Ikon Innovia)
    Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) (Harry Hyx)
    Necklace: Wimey- Lady Mary's Pearls- Lingering Spring @ Seasons Story (Sash Arabello)
    Shirt: The Secret Store - Mary Pleated Shirt - Milk @ Collabor88 (Maylee Oh)
    Skirt: Tee*fy Edela Buttoned Skirt Mint (Azure Electricteeth)
    Purse: *{Junbug}* Princess Clutch in Pearl [Relaxed Hold] @ Collabor88 (Juno Mantel)
    Shoes: [AUX] Footwear - Heartbreaker  - Seafoam (Crushed Clarity)
    Pose: !Bang Stand 320 (Luna Jubilee)

    Thursday, January 16, 2014

    The Cold Never Bothered Me Anyway

    Gosh, I'm so totally obsessed with this movie, and the song, and anything frozen. Just.. urgh. Can we say just amazing above perfection one of my favorite Disney movies ever just.. URGH.

    It's funny because I really identify with Elsa. In the relationship of my sister and me. When we were younger, I actually dropped her in the head, Debs now has a lightning scar on her forehead, and I just.. withdrew from her after that, so seeing this movie was just so emotional, because for the longest time, the relationship that Elsa and Anna had, was that of my sister and me. Needless to say, I cried like a baby. But it's Disney, it's a given that I would cry like crazy.

    Any who, on to the fashion, yes? I've been really busy desning lately, and going to doctors, so I haven't really had the time to blog as much as I used to, and it's killing me, I adore blogging, sharing my thoughts, likes, and pictures with you all, but it's soooo hard at times! URGH. I'm hoping that post surgery next week I can do a home shoot, I love those, just.. time is a killer really. So..

    The crown, I actually made, it's Lord of the Rings inspired for the Fantasy Gacha Carnival. And since I can't get Frozen out of my mind, I kinda threw it in with an Elsa ish inspired look. The blow dress is from Junbug, along with the shawl, from Collabor88. It's truly magnificent, and this picture doesn't even do it justice. The skin and mesh eyeliner are from Glam Affair, in the Cosmetic Fair, I really adore the eye make up on thsi skin, and eyeliner is a weakness of mine in SL, the unique shape of it really makes it something, I love it. Anyways, hope you enjoyed this little quick blog post. On to the credits. Allons-y!


    Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana - Artic 07 C @ Cosmetics Fair by Aida Ewing
    Hair: !lamb. Shelia (Mesh) - Butterscotch by Lamb Bellic
    Mesh Eyeliner: Glam Affair - Tiffany Liner Black @ Cosmetics Fair by Amberly Boccaccio
    Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice (S) by Ikon Innovia
    Crown: Wimey: The Wraith Crown RARE for Fantasy Gacha Carnival (Feb 1st) by Sash Arabello
    Necklace: Glam Affair - Chainedlink Necklace Black/Gold @ Collabor88 by Amberly Boccaccio
    Shawl: Junbug: Vintage Fur Wrap in Silver - S @ Collabor88 by Juno Mantel
    Dress: Junbug: Instant Crush in Steel Blue - S @ Collabor88 by Juno Mantel
    Pose: Del May- Sophisticated 1 by Del May

    Monday, January 6, 2014

    Winter Winds

    It's been so long since I've posted, and I don't mean for that to happen, just kinda does. As you guys know, I have like a crapton of health issues, so it's hard for me to balance designing, blogging, and my own health at times, but! Allons-y! I feel like there's way too much to recap, and lots of inventory to go through! How in the heck did I get over 80k items while I was gone!? Busy designers be busy. That, and I don't even want to try to do a search for "poly" in that mess. Nope.

    So first off, the fabulous Aime bunny lady from Mish Mish made a gorgeous jewelry box for this round of Collab, and it actually has songs and it spins and everything, and at the other side it has this cute little ring, I'm just.. so in love it's not even funny. Then you have the fab Andel Rhiadra from A.D.D Andel that made these gorgeous winter candles, and since I didn't post in December, I felt like I could bring them in and tie the whole winter theme together, along with the shrubble.. well, not shrubble, but I shall call it my shrubble and it shall be mine forever because.. the first thing that I knew from Mish Mish was the shrubble, and now they have a snow version of it that you can sit on (big) and the small one, for travel size, and bed time, of course.

    One of the best things about being a designer, I have to say, is that you can make the things that you want. Like.. No secret that I'm a huge Doctor Who fan, so for a VIP gift for Wimey, I made the bracelet. "Neither Cruel, nor Cowardly. Never give up, never give in". I have got to say that was one of the best Doctor Who quotes ever. So, I put it in a bracelet, silver, for free, just 100L to join the VIP group for future discount, news, and what not. Ison now has mesh eyes, available in Fameshed, and I'm totally in love. And let's not forget the new hair by the fabulous, unique Bubbles Clawtooth from Clawtooth, which will be in the mainstore soon, and was in the last round of Collabor88.

    I think that was all. Yes? No? Questions? To the credits. GERONIMO!


    *MishMish* Nostalgia Jewelry Box - Pale Pink for Collabor88 (1LI)
    A.D.D.Andel! Glitter Candles-Pine Branches (2LI)

    Skin: [KOOQLA] Bisquit (Nude) 02
    Hair: Clawtooth: Cozy cutie - Caramel Cream
    Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice from Fameshed
    Lashes: *Mon Cheri* "Falsies" Mesh Alpha Lashes with HUD - Pack1 
    Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo
    Bracelet: Wimey: Wisdom of a Madman Bracelet *FREE*
    Necklace: Lark - Black Tie Affair - Silver (chest)
    Top: (Chemistry) ZOE SWEATER SHIRT - Yiska
    Jeans: Maitreya Zipper-Skinny Jeans * XS #8
    Shoes: *League* Winter Wedge Boot [Cream/Grey/Black] 
    Shrubble: *MishMish* Mini Snowbles 


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