Breath Me

There are moments in life where we hit a low. Where we're vulnerable, and there's nothing you can do but to cry out, try to breath. You feel naked, but at the same time, restrained. Small. Afraid. Alone. There are no words, there's just that feeling of unbelievable pain as we lose ourselves. And no matter how much we try, we can't find ourselves. We're broken. Lost. Unsafe. Afraid. 

Kind of been feeling that way for the last couple weeks. It's been rough, and thus, I've submerged myself in work, and health issues, my own. Not others. I've deserted a lot of people that I shouldn't have, and.. now the guilt is starting to wash over me. 

Now I'm not saying all this for a pity party, just because it feels like I have to let it out, somehow, before it breaks me, it's so much to contain that I feel like my heart is about to pump through my chest any time soon. I can't do this. I'm holding my breath and trying to hold out, to ride the wave, but.. I can't. Not anymore. 

I guess if there's something that others can take from this is.. don't wait until the last moments to tell someone you love them, or to do something you have the need to do. Just go for it. And ifyou feel like screaming.. I guess you should do so as well. I don't know, my brain is scattered, I haven't slept in two days, and it's starting to get to me, and.. I feel like I'm reaching out, and grasping air instead of.. whatever it is that I'm trying to find. I'm naked, and chained. And not in the good way. I'm afraid. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Song *peche

Hair: Magika [01] Mint

Eyes: IKON Perspective Eyes - Ghost

Lashes: *Mon Cheri* "Falsies" Mesh Alpha Lashes with HUD - Pack1

Shackles: Real Restraints- Serious Shackles 

Underwear: ~Blacklace~ Kirsty: Red Lace 3 Piece Set

Pose: came with the shackles. there wasn't a pose or anything really.

I've Got Friends On The Other Side

I needed to do a quick lotd pretty much because I've been wearing this outfit for two days I I freaking love it, but I couldn't take it off without like.. putting something out there for it cus.. I freaking love it. It's based on one of my favorite Disney characters, probably my second favorite after Maleficent, just because I completely love his song, and I totally love how it came out, the look I mean, the pic was a quickie, so forgive the lack of detailing on it, but.. Collab this round is totally amazing and.. BOOM totaly inspired me with the little top hat. I actually talked to her, turns out I got the inspiration right! And it isnpired a whole Dr. Facilier look. I wanted to do more, but I'm kinda working, and well.. yeah.. this is cute. You guys should dress up like Dr. Facilier, and sing his song all the time like me. Sound like a plan? Yes? Yes?? OKAY. Do it. I'm going to just go to the credits cus I'm uber busy with the fair stuff, and with making stuff, and trying not to be sick and die. Okay? Kay. Kay? Cool. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *brunette* For Wizarding Fair

Hair: Clawtooth: Windswept - DevestatingBlackDip For Collab88

Freckles: [PXL] FullBody freckles Dark (tattoo 2.x)

Eyes: {S0NG} :: Mew // Diamond Eye

Hat: *BOOM* Baron and Baroness Hats (violet) for Collabor88

Necklaces Galore: MG - Necklace - Angelica's Ankh Of Power 

MG - Necklace - Shadow Cross 

LaGyo_Morgana's necklace

All for Collabor88

Coat: TAILLEUR by Steffen Garcia, Goddess For Collabor88

Skirt: Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Leather Panel Skirt[Black]

Boots: Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Silla Boots[Black] for Collabor88

Double, Double, Toil and Trouble

Wow, I can't believe I've actually survived last week. Been insane! Little sleep, hard work, doctors, medicines, and working. Oh, and did I mention pulling almost 34 hours straight of just pure work for Wizarding Fair? It was so much hard work, but so worth it, I'm so incredibly thankful to have been around so many great creators like the ones that are in Wizarding Fair. Just.. awesome. If you haven't gone, btw, you really need to. The build is amazing, and there's house elves. Yeah. House elves and flying books. Need I say more?

There's nothing I don't like in this fair. Really amazing stuff by everyone, like I said, I'm so incredibly humbled by the chance to be in an event with such amazing creators as them, and like.. just.. I can't even pick a favorite thing, this are just some of the things that worked out with what I had in mind with this picture, along with some mixed and matched stuff. There might be more if I have more time, but.. yeah, I hope you guys enjoy, and that you go to this wonderful event, because.. it's just breathtaking the work that all these amazing creators have done. 

Credits:

Set:

:CP: Dorm Bed - Snakey (Family Version) 7 LI for Wizarding Fair

The Loft - Beige Floral Rug 1 LI

Ohmai Emporium: Free Elf Pet (Rez & Self-Pose) (Ghog) 9 LI for Wizarding Fair

B.C.C mignon wizard school Backpacks RARE B (actually to wear.. 76LI. Yikes. Don't rez) for Wizarding Fair

::{u.f.o}::magical monster pet - defkon - whiteful 12 LI for Wizarding Fair

[Con.] The Spell-o d'Cauldron for Wizarding Fair

[Con.] Jars 1 LI  each for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Care of Magical Creatures (Rez) 1LI for Wizarding Fair

Schadenfreude Curious Flora (no close) 1 LI for Wizarding Fair

:{Atomic}: Ingredient Jars 1 LI each for Wizarding Fair

:{Atomic}: Cauldron - Medium 1 LI for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Halloween Dessert Table 4 LI for Candy Fair

Lark - Divination (Rez) 2 LI for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Charms (Rez) (Books Animated) 3 LI for Wizarding Fair (BOOKS FLY!)

Trompe Loeil - Ashdon Couch with Blanket PG for Fameshed

Ohmai Emporium: Free Elf Pet (Rez & Self-Pose) (Wuggy) 9 LI for Wizarding Fair

Trompe Loeil - Ashdon Fabric Screen High LOD 6LI for Fameshed

On Avatar:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *blonde* for Wizarding Fair

[monso] My Hair - Khaleesi Regular Pack1 for Wizarding Fair

Hat: *BOOM* Student Cap for Wizarding Fair

Necklace: Essences: A Shift in Time Necklace (F) for Wizarding Fair

Dress: Peqe - Off-Shoulder Gown @ Fantasy Faire black

Wand: Swish and Flick by *BOOM* Ebony Wand for Wizarding Fair

Pose: Del May - Evanescence

In Retrospective

Pardon the half way done picture. But.. well..... long week, and I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings.

It's been an insane week! If you would have told me last month that all of this was going to happen, I wouldn't have believed it. Hell, I still kind of don't. It's been surreal, making things, actually selling, seeing bloggers whose work I enjoy actually blogging and enjoying my things. There's been tears, and a lot of happiness. And to believe that a month ago I couldn't build if I didn't follow a tutorial. Not to say I don't look things up still or ask for help, but.. the growth this week alone has been huge. I owe a lot of people for that, and I also have to thank Inka for giving me the chance to go in this journey with her.

With Candy Fair over, and starting out with Wizarding Fair tomorrow at noon, and nothing else to build, I have to breath. It's been a madhouse trying to learn all of this, dealing with my health issues, actually being hospitalized for a good portion of this time, and then.. culminating on this. Just.Wow. I can't believe I even got the honor to be a part of FLF this week. Can you talk about lucky?! So, I guess I have to say thank you to the few close friends that helped me out through this, Inka, Sienia, Aime, Tyr, Allegory, all of you for helping me when I wanted to tear my hair out and run away and quick, those friends that were genuinely supportive and helped me out along the way to keep my spirit. MJ and Rose, and everyone at the Wizarding Fair for allowing me to participate. I just.. I'm overjoyed. All of the wonderful bloggers. I mean, I got blogged by Berry! I was speechless, I still can't really believe it. Most of you have been amazing to me, and I greatly appreciate it.

I put a look together really quick with stuff from Wizarding Fair to show you guys, some of my faves, I'm sure now that things slowed down I'll be able to showcase a little more, God willing. I'm wearing my necklace, sue me, I'm proud, my sweat, blood,and tears went into that texture work, and many hours, I'm very happy with it, the skin is new from Essences, available at Wizarding Fair, and it comes with different breast options, so it'll be kid friendly, top from Peqe cus.. well, I love Peqe. All of these will be available tomorrow at noon, so don't forget to come and check out the fair, it'll be worth it, promise!

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *blonde* for Wizarding Fair

Hair: Exile::Sparkle And Fade Natural Fusion

Eyes: IKON Perspective Eyes - Apex

Freckles: [PXL] FullBody freckles Dark (tattoo 2.x)

Moles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face)

Necklace: Essences: A Shift in Time Necklace (F) Wizarding Fair

Top: Peqe - Wizarding Sweater w/Shirt_Pink Wizarding Fair

Pose: Marukin [Flambe] addicted

I'm Back in the Saddle again (ish?)

Woah it feels like forever since I've done this. Between starting to design, and health issues, it has been weeks! Month? I'm sorry! I haven't forgotten all of you, just.. life has some really strange loops on it at times. I had to get surgery, I need another surgery, and now I'm designing! I'm actually in Candy Fair and Wizarding Fair, AND FLF this week. Can you talk about stress? But I've missed blogging so much that I had to come back for a ninja attack. Hayyy-ya!

So, Candy Fair starts like.. tomorrow, and there's two things that I'm absolutely in love with accessories wise. Atooly made a head band, and I mean.. come on.. we all know I'm kind of obsessed with head bands, and it has candy on it.. like.. yeah, I'm on that. Then, I had the pleasure to meet Tea Soup, her booth is next to mine and Inka's! And she's like.. the sweetest girl ever! I absolutely love her necklace and bracelet for the fair, and just.. adore. Fameshed opened a couple days ago.. obssesed with this shirt by Cracked Mirror, like.. love, the under top is semi sheer, and the sweater on it, just... like.. completely love, and the hair by wasabi pills, with a headband.. like.. yeah, I'm done, I can't with all the cute at fameshed this round. 

Now, Wizarding Fair opens this Sunday, and I'm still making crap for it, so forgive me for this crappy post, but, I did make this watch, it's a pocket watch, it has initials on it, and then it has one for each house with teh metal and gem for the house, the loyal, the ambitious, the brave, and the wise. But this is my favorite. It's modeled after a snitch, and it's got "I open at the close" engraved on it, both in silver/gold and gold/gold version. There will be two machines, each 25L. And don't forget to stay tuned for more Wizarding Fair goodies, it'll be absolutely amazing, I know Anya and Sienia from Lark are making a house elf, and I won't lie, I'm kind of crappying my pants about it! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Aime *doux

Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Jade Mesh Hair - Browns Pack for Fameshed

Eyes: {S0NG} :: Ghost~ Cold Blue Eye 

Freckles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face)

Lips: [PF] Harley Sheer Gloss <Ivory> - Nude (mouth)

Headband: [Atooly] Gumball Crown - Red for Candy Fair

Necklace: [tea.s] Lolli Necklace -Silver- Mint Candy for Candy Fair

Top: (CM) Molly Top (navy/grey) for Fameshed

Bracelet: [tea.s] Conversation Trinket -Gold-  Bite Me (unpacked) for Candy Fair

Pocket Watch: Essences: Silver Wizarding Companion: Golden Wings RARE for Wizarding Fair (soon)

Pose: //elephante poses// Getting Better