And We'll Never Be Royals

So I loooooove this song, Royals, like.. the more I listen to it, the more listen to it, the more I obsess with it, and throughout my hospital stay, that's literally all I could play in my phone. I think I made my husband sick. Soz. Not soz, really. 

Anyways, I went to Collab, and that's all I could think when I saw the amazing stuff that the designers did this round. Can we please talk about the lightbulbs that Tegan Serin did from floorplan? I'm dying a little, and you can change them to any metal you want. Bronze, gold, silver, platinum, and charcoal. The textures are lovely, whenyou turn them on they don't look like a hot glow mess, and they're just fabulous. Then you have Trompe, and I adore these chairs, and the chandelier.. urgh. It's so classy, but not royal, it's just my style. The cat though, that's Sway's release for FLF, so.. make sure to grab it today while you can, so adorable, and unique, it's a cute must have piece. The rug is from Lark, and well, the scene just needed a cute rug to pull the look together, I think. 

For clothing, I did all from Collab, the shoes are fri.day, and they're adorable, point heels, and with a cute little emblem on the side, can't really see it, but it's adorable, and works with Slink feet. The skirt is from Tres Blah, it has a minor problem with the rigging though, so when you sit, the studs, and the skirt sometimes go different ways, I noticed, it's a little on the annoying side, but for standing, it's the most adorable skirt ever. And the top is also from Tres Blah, and it's just soooo cute, I can't live without it. The necklace is new from Yummy, and seriously, they never cease to amaze me, it's so elegantly understated that it's just hte perfect piece to pull off the theme. New hair by Bubbles Clawtooth too. I adoooore Clawtooth hair, possibly because I'm a little obsessed with Bubbles and how fabulous he is, but.. also because the textures are always more.. I don't even know how to call it, it's got more of the indie vibe that I love in my styles, and for some reason I'm digging weird colors lately, so I stuck with the Princess Bubblegum color, but.. yeah, I adore this hair style! 

So, that's my Royals inspired style, mostly from this Collabor88 round! Make sure to get it all because.. this round is truly amazing!

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Lily Doux *blonde* Available Soon.

Hair: Clawtooth: Heart Attack and Vine - Princess Bubblegum for Collabor88

Freckles: [okkbye] Serious Full Body Freckles  2.0 - Pale

Nails/Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed with A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Black on Black

Necklace: (Yummy) Metal and Diamonds - Day for Collabor88

Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage for Collabor88

Skirt: -tb- Studded Skirt - Black for Collabor88

Shoes: fri. - Amelia.Heels (Charcoal) for Collabor88

Pose: Del May - Hotness

Chandelier: Trompe Loeil - Industrial Chandelier Medium (11 LI) for Collabor88

Chairs: Trompe Loeil - Industrial Lounger Ice and Fawn (3 LI each) for Collabor88

Rug: Lark - Reyk Rug - Snow (2 LI)

Cat Lamp: Sway's Lamp [meow] unplugged - pink (1 LI) for FLF

Eiffel Tower Lamp: floorplan. eiffel tower marquee (1 LI) for Collabor88

Wall Lighting: floorplan. industrial lighting (6 LI each) for Collabor88

Monday Meme- Who does your AV look like in RL?

So this meme actually started in plurk, and then it made its way into Berry's weekly meme, and well, I kind of had to do it, because.. I feel like it's been forever since I've blogged between being sick all the freaking time and work. So.. I made a quick nude picture.. that you're only seeing the top cuz :> Enough sexy for a bit, right? Right. So.. yeah, there it is. All cute! 

When I made the shape for this av, my inspiration was actually Coco Rocha I seriously love that girl! In beauty, she's flawless, I adore the fact that she has dark hair and light eyebrows, and them eyes! Urgh, she's just flawless, and the features she has are gorgeous, and personailty wise.. she really is something, she's not afraid to be herself weird, funny, awkward, and she is not afraid to have a personality behind her picture. Out of all the models out there, she's got to be my favorite one, so of course there's certain elements of hers that I transfered into my avatar. For starters, the eyes, and the shape for the most part remains always the same. I did add freckles though, because.. well, I have a love affair with freckles. 

So.. yup, that's my inspiration for my avatar.. as far as who that website says I look like.. I'm afraid, last picture I tried with said that I looked like Al Gore, George W Bush, and freaking John McCain. Scary. And... I had a reason to be afraid... Denzel Washington? Really? Like.. are.you.serious? :/ Looks like I had a reason to be scared. Make sure to.. have your laughs using that generator, it's just ridiculous. 

Release wise.. there's not much.. the nails are cute, I rarely blog nails because the detail gets lost, but.. A:S:S (yup, I giggle at the name too) Has some amazing black nails that also work well for guy av's.. if you're into nail art. Amala has this cute little set (jewelry) That's just.. simple but amazing, the detail job on it and the textures are flawless, love it. And.. that's it? Yup! Have a good week guys! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Lily Doux *blonde* (Available Soon)

Hair: . Liquence . - F3 

Freckles: [okkbye] Full Body Freckles 2.0

Moles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face)

Eyes: IKON Perspective Eyes - Apex

Nails: A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Black on Black

Lipstick: [PF] Harley Lipstick <Ivory> - Romantic Red (mouth)

Lashes: *Mon Cheri* "Falsies" Mesh Alpha Lashes with HUD - Pack1

Jewelry: Amala - Pearl Drop Headpiece and Necklace for Dream Garden

Breath Me

There are moments in life where we hit a low. Where we're vulnerable, and there's nothing you can do but to cry out, try to breath. You feel naked, but at the same time, restrained. Small. Afraid. Alone. There are no words, there's just that feeling of unbelievable pain as we lose ourselves. And no matter how much we try, we can't find ourselves. We're broken. Lost. Unsafe. Afraid. 

Kind of been feeling that way for the last couple weeks. It's been rough, and thus, I've submerged myself in work, and health issues, my own. Not others. I've deserted a lot of people that I shouldn't have, and.. now the guilt is starting to wash over me. 

Now I'm not saying all this for a pity party, just because it feels like I have to let it out, somehow, before it breaks me, it's so much to contain that I feel like my heart is about to pump through my chest any time soon. I can't do this. I'm holding my breath and trying to hold out, to ride the wave, but.. I can't. Not anymore. 

I guess if there's something that others can take from this is.. don't wait until the last moments to tell someone you love them, or to do something you have the need to do. Just go for it. And ifyou feel like screaming.. I guess you should do so as well. I don't know, my brain is scattered, I haven't slept in two days, and it's starting to get to me, and.. I feel like I'm reaching out, and grasping air instead of.. whatever it is that I'm trying to find. I'm naked, and chained. And not in the good way. I'm afraid. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Song *peche

Hair: Magika [01] Mint

Eyes: IKON Perspective Eyes - Ghost

Lashes: *Mon Cheri* "Falsies" Mesh Alpha Lashes with HUD - Pack1

Shackles: Real Restraints- Serious Shackles 

Underwear: ~Blacklace~ Kirsty: Red Lace 3 Piece Set

Pose: came with the shackles. there wasn't a pose or anything really.

I've Got Friends On The Other Side

I needed to do a quick lotd pretty much because I've been wearing this outfit for two days I I freaking love it, but I couldn't take it off without like.. putting something out there for it cus.. I freaking love it. It's based on one of my favorite Disney characters, probably my second favorite after Maleficent, just because I completely love his song, and I totally love how it came out, the look I mean, the pic was a quickie, so forgive the lack of detailing on it, but.. Collab this round is totally amazing and.. BOOM totaly inspired me with the little top hat. I actually talked to her, turns out I got the inspiration right! And it isnpired a whole Dr. Facilier look. I wanted to do more, but I'm kinda working, and well.. yeah.. this is cute. You guys should dress up like Dr. Facilier, and sing his song all the time like me. Sound like a plan? Yes? Yes?? OKAY. Do it. I'm going to just go to the credits cus I'm uber busy with the fair stuff, and with making stuff, and trying not to be sick and die. Okay? Kay. Kay? Cool. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *brunette* For Wizarding Fair

Hair: Clawtooth: Windswept - DevestatingBlackDip For Collab88

Freckles: [PXL] FullBody freckles Dark (tattoo 2.x)

Eyes: {S0NG} :: Mew // Diamond Eye

Hat: *BOOM* Baron and Baroness Hats (violet) for Collabor88

Necklaces Galore: MG - Necklace - Angelica's Ankh Of Power 

MG - Necklace - Shadow Cross 

LaGyo_Morgana's necklace

All for Collabor88

Coat: TAILLEUR by Steffen Garcia, Goddess For Collabor88

Skirt: Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Leather Panel Skirt[Black]

Boots: Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Silla Boots[Black] for Collabor88

Double, Double, Toil and Trouble

Wow, I can't believe I've actually survived last week. Been insane! Little sleep, hard work, doctors, medicines, and working. Oh, and did I mention pulling almost 34 hours straight of just pure work for Wizarding Fair? It was so much hard work, but so worth it, I'm so incredibly thankful to have been around so many great creators like the ones that are in Wizarding Fair. Just.. awesome. If you haven't gone, btw, you really need to. The build is amazing, and there's house elves. Yeah. House elves and flying books. Need I say more?

There's nothing I don't like in this fair. Really amazing stuff by everyone, like I said, I'm so incredibly humbled by the chance to be in an event with such amazing creators as them, and like.. just.. I can't even pick a favorite thing, this are just some of the things that worked out with what I had in mind with this picture, along with some mixed and matched stuff. There might be more if I have more time, but.. yeah, I hope you guys enjoy, and that you go to this wonderful event, because.. it's just breathtaking the work that all these amazing creators have done. 

Credits:

Set:

:CP: Dorm Bed - Snakey (Family Version) 7 LI for Wizarding Fair

The Loft - Beige Floral Rug 1 LI

Ohmai Emporium: Free Elf Pet (Rez & Self-Pose) (Ghog) 9 LI for Wizarding Fair

B.C.C mignon wizard school Backpacks RARE B (actually to wear.. 76LI. Yikes. Don't rez) for Wizarding Fair

::{u.f.o}::magical monster pet - defkon - whiteful 12 LI for Wizarding Fair

[Con.] The Spell-o d'Cauldron for Wizarding Fair

[Con.] Jars 1 LI  each for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Care of Magical Creatures (Rez) 1LI for Wizarding Fair

Schadenfreude Curious Flora (no close) 1 LI for Wizarding Fair

:{Atomic}: Ingredient Jars 1 LI each for Wizarding Fair

:{Atomic}: Cauldron - Medium 1 LI for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Halloween Dessert Table 4 LI for Candy Fair

Lark - Divination (Rez) 2 LI for Wizarding Fair

Lark - Charms (Rez) (Books Animated) 3 LI for Wizarding Fair (BOOKS FLY!)

Trompe Loeil - Ashdon Couch with Blanket PG for Fameshed

Ohmai Emporium: Free Elf Pet (Rez & Self-Pose) (Wuggy) 9 LI for Wizarding Fair

Trompe Loeil - Ashdon Fabric Screen High LOD 6LI for Fameshed

On Avatar:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *blonde* for Wizarding Fair

[monso] My Hair - Khaleesi Regular Pack1 for Wizarding Fair

Hat: *BOOM* Student Cap for Wizarding Fair

Necklace: Essences: A Shift in Time Necklace (F) for Wizarding Fair

Dress: Peqe - Off-Shoulder Gown @ Fantasy Faire black

Wand: Swish and Flick by *BOOM* Ebony Wand for Wizarding Fair

Pose: Del May - Evanescence

In Retrospective

Pardon the half way done picture. But.. well..... long week, and I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings.

It's been an insane week! If you would have told me last month that all of this was going to happen, I wouldn't have believed it. Hell, I still kind of don't. It's been surreal, making things, actually selling, seeing bloggers whose work I enjoy actually blogging and enjoying my things. There's been tears, and a lot of happiness. And to believe that a month ago I couldn't build if I didn't follow a tutorial. Not to say I don't look things up still or ask for help, but.. the growth this week alone has been huge. I owe a lot of people for that, and I also have to thank Inka for giving me the chance to go in this journey with her.

With Candy Fair over, and starting out with Wizarding Fair tomorrow at noon, and nothing else to build, I have to breath. It's been a madhouse trying to learn all of this, dealing with my health issues, actually being hospitalized for a good portion of this time, and then.. culminating on this. Just.Wow. I can't believe I even got the honor to be a part of FLF this week. Can you talk about lucky?! So, I guess I have to say thank you to the few close friends that helped me out through this, Inka, Sienia, Aime, Tyr, Allegory, all of you for helping me when I wanted to tear my hair out and run away and quick, those friends that were genuinely supportive and helped me out along the way to keep my spirit. MJ and Rose, and everyone at the Wizarding Fair for allowing me to participate. I just.. I'm overjoyed. All of the wonderful bloggers. I mean, I got blogged by Berry! I was speechless, I still can't really believe it. Most of you have been amazing to me, and I greatly appreciate it.

I put a look together really quick with stuff from Wizarding Fair to show you guys, some of my faves, I'm sure now that things slowed down I'll be able to showcase a little more, God willing. I'm wearing my necklace, sue me, I'm proud, my sweat, blood,and tears went into that texture work, and many hours, I'm very happy with it, the skin is new from Essences, available at Wizarding Fair, and it comes with different breast options, so it'll be kid friendly, top from Peqe cus.. well, I love Peqe. All of these will be available tomorrow at noon, so don't forget to come and check out the fair, it'll be worth it, promise!

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Qopi (light rose) *blonde* for Wizarding Fair

Hair: Exile::Sparkle And Fade Natural Fusion

Eyes: IKON Perspective Eyes - Apex

Freckles: [PXL] FullBody freckles Dark (tattoo 2.x)

Moles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face)

Necklace: Essences: A Shift in Time Necklace (F) Wizarding Fair

Top: Peqe - Wizarding Sweater w/Shirt_Pink Wizarding Fair

Pose: Marukin [Flambe] addicted

I'm Back in the Saddle again (ish?)

Woah it feels like forever since I've done this. Between starting to design, and health issues, it has been weeks! Month? I'm sorry! I haven't forgotten all of you, just.. life has some really strange loops on it at times. I had to get surgery, I need another surgery, and now I'm designing! I'm actually in Candy Fair and Wizarding Fair, AND FLF this week. Can you talk about stress? But I've missed blogging so much that I had to come back for a ninja attack. Hayyy-ya!

So, Candy Fair starts like.. tomorrow, and there's two things that I'm absolutely in love with accessories wise. Atooly made a head band, and I mean.. come on.. we all know I'm kind of obsessed with head bands, and it has candy on it.. like.. yeah, I'm on that. Then, I had the pleasure to meet Tea Soup, her booth is next to mine and Inka's! And she's like.. the sweetest girl ever! I absolutely love her necklace and bracelet for the fair, and just.. adore. Fameshed opened a couple days ago.. obssesed with this shirt by Cracked Mirror, like.. love, the under top is semi sheer, and the sweater on it, just... like.. completely love, and the hair by wasabi pills, with a headband.. like.. yeah, I'm done, I can't with all the cute at fameshed this round. 

Now, Wizarding Fair opens this Sunday, and I'm still making crap for it, so forgive me for this crappy post, but, I did make this watch, it's a pocket watch, it has initials on it, and then it has one for each house with teh metal and gem for the house, the loyal, the ambitious, the brave, and the wise. But this is my favorite. It's modeled after a snitch, and it's got "I open at the close" engraved on it, both in silver/gold and gold/gold version. There will be two machines, each 25L. And don't forget to stay tuned for more Wizarding Fair goodies, it'll be absolutely amazing, I know Anya and Sienia from Lark are making a house elf, and I won't lie, I'm kind of crappying my pants about it! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Aime *doux

Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Jade Mesh Hair - Browns Pack for Fameshed

Eyes: {S0NG} :: Ghost~ Cold Blue Eye 

Freckles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face)

Lips: [PF] Harley Sheer Gloss <Ivory> - Nude (mouth)

Headband: [Atooly] Gumball Crown - Red for Candy Fair

Necklace: [tea.s] Lolli Necklace -Silver- Mint Candy for Candy Fair

Top: (CM) Molly Top (navy/grey) for Fameshed

Bracelet: [tea.s] Conversation Trinket -Gold-  Bite Me (unpacked) for Candy Fair

Pocket Watch: Essences: Silver Wizarding Companion: Golden Wings RARE for Wizarding Fair (soon)

Pose: //elephante poses// Getting Better