I've been challenged!

And here I thought I would be safe, but the lovely, aka mean, aka, still love you, Fae Eriksen from Fishy Strawberry has sent her challenge through facebook. 

So, I had to rush, because.. well, damn her. I was all comfy in bed, taking a break before the hell of building and texturing starts, and I get that. Might as well do it tonight before I forget and it goes in the back burner. 

Now I get to nominate some people. BWAHAHAHA. Okay, I'm going to do two sets of nominations because one is a list of people I would love to see do it because I think they would make an awesome picture. The other is a list of people that have to do it because I'm mean. So.. here it is. 

PEOPLE THAT MUST DO THE BUCKET CHALLENGE:

I challenge Sienia Trevellion, Andel Rhiadra, and Tea Soup. I WANT TO SEE PICTURES WITH BUCKETS OF ICE AND WATER, LADIES. 

Now, the second set is people that I really would enjoy to see doing it, but I don't know if they would, or even if they would hear about my challenge to them. So I'm going to put here Strawberry Singh, Kaelyn Alecto and Sylvia Olivier with her lovely family. 

I know it's a big list! But I'm going to be donating a large portion of my cash out when it comes in to ALS, so I guess that makes up for it. I did the picture, and the donation. So! That gives me a chance to double nominate, right? Right?! I dont' care. It's my life, I do what I want. I'm a rebel like that. 

For more information about this illness, and to find out how to donate, please visit: http://www.alsa.org/

To get a bucket in world, visit: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Iced%20Gems/232/127/22

                                                                                Credits: 

Hair: *ARGRACE* HIKARI - Cocoa [S] by Rika Oyen

Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 

Bathing suit: *BOOM* Ariara Bikini by Aranel Ah

Hands and feet: Slink Medium feet and Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Fist by Siddean Munro

Pose: Exposeur - Little Hearts 5 by Rubystarlight Writer 

O Captain, My Captain- Depression and Farewells.

I struggled for a long time on trying to figure out a good post to make after Robin Williams passed away. I didn't want to make something that was just for doing it, or writing it, I wanted my words and picture to represent something, to be meaningful. Be warned, the post below will contain personal information, and a look into what depression feels like, and why it's important to be aware of this deadly disease, because yes, it is a disease. If you're bothered by either of these themes, this might not be the post for you. 

Robin Williams' death hit me hard, I'm not going to lie, I still cry about it. A lot of people think it's ridiculous, since I didn't know him, but that's the point. We never took the time to get to know the selfless man that gave us laughs and filled our childhood with warm memories. He needed us, and we turned our backs. We didn't see the signs. We lost him too soon. This is what saddens me the most, and having been in that same boat, and having been saved, just, it's devastating. He was a legend. He was one of a kind. The world truly is a little less funny and bright, but as we've seen around, you're free. You're free from the chains of this world, from the guilt, and the hurt, free to be the you you've always desired to be, and to laugh freely like you made us laugh so many times. Rest in peace.

The thing that kills me though, is that not enough light is being shined upon how horrible depression is. He wasn't selfish. One of his last acts was sending a woman overseas a video of himself because meeting him was on her bucket list. He tried to make her laugh in his most desperate moment. If you haven't been through depression, I want you to take away all those thoughts that he was selfish, that sadness is just something you can cure. Get them out of your head right now, and clear them out. This is what depression feels like.

One day, there is something that happens, devastating, or maybe it's been going for a while, bringing lower and lower every day, or perhaps it came alone, suddenly. Regardless, it feels as if you're carrying a boulder on your back. You can't stand up, physically it hurts. Emotionally it hurts. There's a void in your heart, or inside you, it feels like ice. It hurts. It physically freezes you, and it hurts. But you have to keep going. Life goes on. This great boulder on your back, you can't take it off, you have to walk with it all day long, drag yourself step by step. People stare. You know they're talking about you. Not only are they talking about you, it feels like they're adding weight to this great boulder you have to carry. But you can't stop. No. If you stop, then they'll pile more on top of you. You have to run. You have to get away. And finally you do. For a moment you're free. You cry, you let it out. But the weight is still there. You talk to someone you trust, but the weight is still there, even if they have taken a couple of pebbles away from you. 

The day is over. Now is time to head home. Your loved ones are there. They stare at you. It huts. You're hurting them. You know they can see the boulder you're carrying, and they want to take it away from you. They want to carry it for you, but they can't get it off, they say only you can. But you've tried. Desperation sets in. You can't do anything. You're helpless to this great weight that you carry behind you. You can see this boulder growing, and it's going to crush your family too. No. It can't. It's your burden to carry. So you lock yourself up. Withdraw from others. That way, if they can't see you, you can't hurt them. They can't hurt you. It's good, right? No. Your family complains that you hide away. They're worried about you. The internet, your only outlet for freedom, makes fun of you. They "troll" you. You can't do it anymore. The weight is so heavy that it feels like you're suffocating. There must be an end. There must be a way to run away from the pain. You think, and there is. You go online and you find you're not alone. There are others, some urge you to go for help, others give you tips on how to end your suffering. You're at a crossroads now. But you've seek help. The doctors threw around illnesses at you that you knew you didn't have. You knew exactly what you had. Depression. The pills didn't help. You're screaming and they don't hear. Reach for the rope, it's time to end it all. 

This is what depression feels like. This is the road that many have walked. Some have survived. Some have perished and lost their battle with depression. I say to you, please. If you've ever felt like this. If you feel like this right now. Seek help. When you end your life, and that boulder is off your shoulders, it will attach to others around you. It's not worth it. You're not saving anyone. Go to someone, talk, eventually, the rock will fall, pebble by pebble.

And to you all that are in the internet, stop being trolls. There is no excuse to be abusive to others. To you all that find pleasure in humiliating others and shielding under the veil of anonymity, I beg you. Stop. Some of you have attacked me, with my daughter, and it hurts. You all know where to go to make the dagger stick. It's sickening. I'm glad I'm strong enough to only be mildly hurt by it, strong enough to know that you need more help than I do. But I will also say this. One day, one of those hateful messages you write will end a life. You will be the reason, the last drop, the last pebble, the last ounce of required weight that it took that person to be driven to insanity, and to do such a horrible thing. Don't be that person. Instead of attacking, lend a help, help them, they need your help. Instead of ending a life, save a life. 

Let's not forget Robin Williams, let's carry his memory in our hearts, share his gift with others, and use his last act as a lesson on how to be a better human being. On how you're not alone if you're depressed, and how you hurt the world once you're gone. It doesn't solve problems, it creates more. Let's all be a shoulder for others to cry, let's be humans, and take the monsters and devils out of us. Let's help someone that needs it today.

Credits:

Hair: + Lamb. Pandora - Variety/Ombre/Eccentric by Lamb Bellic at Collabor88

Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 

Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) by Harry Hyx

Necklace: Lark - Sweet Dreams Kitty Necklace by Sienia Trevellion 

Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage by Julliette Westerburg

Skirt: *BOOM* Athena Skirt Long  Pitch by Aranel Ah at Collabor88

Hands: Slink Hands by Siddean Munro

Body: Slink Physique by Siddean Munro

Shoes: -Pixicat- Royal.Shoe (Pink) by areve

Feet: Slink High Feet by Siddean Munro

Pose: Little Hearts from {.:exposeur:.} by Rubystarlight Writer 

Bad Things

Ack. I'm blogging again. Something must be wrong, there's a crack in the universe. QUICK, SOMEONE GET THE DOCTOR PLEASE!

Okay, so.. Um, I really don't have much to say, it's more like I've been trying to clean up my inventory  open random boxes I had just gotten in my inventory, and then this sort of happened. I kinda loved it and I was like, hey! It's a great time to work waste time and practice my PS skills, so then this kinda happened, and because The Fantasy Collective is so awesome this round, and I seriously regret not being a part of the designers this round cus rl kicked my butt and made me sick, I decided I'd blog some of my favorite items from there. Also, I had to use some Mandala, because obviously I'm kind of addicted to them lately. Damn talented people. SHARE THE SKILLS, DANG IT.

So, moving on, i think I should do the credits before I start to work waste more time until I literally can't anymore and I loose my mind. Thanks for reading, and I hope you guys visit TFC when it opens in the next couple days, the designers really knocked it out of the park!

Credits:

Hair: ~Tableau Vivant~ Barony Hair by M4ri1yn Magic for TFC (The Fantasy Collective)
Skin:  Lara Hurley- Fae Milky by Lara Hurley
Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Makeup: NOX. Voodoo Skull by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten) for TFC
Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)
Head Skull thingie: DRD witch doctor mask by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Cane voodoo thingie: DRD witchdoctor staff by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Necklace: A(spine)[MANDALA]SINRA2  Necklace/vintage gold by  菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Corset thingie?: [Haste] Facilier Possession Shorts Brown by Auston Harbour and Harvest Dezno for TFC
Jeans: {mon tissu} Denim - 1929 Cigarette ~ Gray
Boots: *League* Dhara Boots -Biscuit by Nena Janus
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Gesture by Siddean Munro
Pose: !bang- stand 320 by Luna Jubilee

Big Girls Cry

Okay, so obviously I'm obsessed with doing pictures lately. Which is good, I guess i just haven't had time lately for it, and I'm finally able to, and it's just.. overload of prettiness. That and I've learned some new editing techniques that just make me excited to do pictures as well. I don't know. Also, blame Sia, her music inspires me to do pictures. If you haven't heard her new album, you really should, her voice is completely amazing, and her lyrics truly move you.

At any rate. I just put this look together by randomly trying things on from my huge inventory that I didn't even know I had. I completely love the look, and the clock from Mandala is a nice little tough, it's in this round of Collabor88, and I'm absolutely in love with it! I do love Mandala and the realism of their pieces. It's just insane to me! So yeah, I had to pair it with one of their necklaces. Anyways. I hope you like today's look. Love and stuff <3

Credits:

Hair: [LeLutka]-CECILIA hair - BlondeFun By Thorra Charron 

Skin: [PF] Harley <Ivory> - FATPACK by Mochi (mochi.milena) (Includes Lipgloss, and eye shadow)

Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)

Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)

Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)

Lashes: *MC* "Falsies" Eyelash - Upper+Lower by Ŧгєуα (freya.olivieri)

Necklace: Choker_B [MANDALA] by Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)

Dress: Emery - Mesh Maxi Dress Marie Nite by Sun (sunami.beck)

Watch: (complete/LEATHER) [MANDALA]BILLIONAIRE_Fashionista(white) By Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel) @ Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed by Siddean Munro

Nails: A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Serenata by Pho Vinternatt (photos.nikolaidis)

Pose/Chair: Trompe Loeil Wrought Iron Patio Chair  ~ Plain by Cory Edo 

When you're alone, Silence is all you'll know.

So I think everyone in Sl knows that I have a tiny addiction to Doctor Who (It's actually bigger on the inside, though) And I've been listening to the soundtrack all these days while working. Welp. Sorry tho. But this song always hits home, maybe it's because this episode is such a beautiful one. You know.. The Christmas Carol, with Abigail, And the Scrooge like old man that had his memory changed forever. I cry so hard at the ending, and let's face it, the doctor marrying Marilyn was also pretty hilarious. But the lyrics, and the beautiful melody of this song, with the magic on it, and all of it. Blahhhh. So anyways, I was going around SL, and I felt pretty, and I decided to make this picture. Basically, and share it and blog it, because.. why not? Collab is amazing. Go buy all the things, kay?

Also, the shoes are for a very special event. <3 Ulaa. It's a special fundraiser to help one of our own residents go home to see her mom along with her son. Her mom is dying from cancer, and it just hit close to home for so many reasons. I'm partaking in the event, along with some other great designers, like Enfant Terrible, these shoes work with Slink High Feet, and are only 250L, and are just gorgeous. I was left speechless, just had to buy it. Anyways! They're trying to reach for 200USD, so let's all work together and help her get there! If you want to donate personally, you can also do so http://www.gofundme.com/atht7w or just shop at the great event, starting tomorrow! Any little bit helps.

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Cassia skin - America by Aida Ewing 

Hair: Exile::Letters and lipstick by Kavar Cleanslate at Collabor88

Body: Slink Physique Body by Siddean Munro

Dress: Tee*fy Aphrodite Dress XS Teal by Azure Electricteeth at Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed - XSmall by Siddean Munro

Shoes: .Enfant Terrible. <3 Ulaa heels for <3 Ulaa

Feet: Slink Female Feet (AvEnhance) XS - High by Siddean Munro

Pose: !Bang by Luna Jubilee

I've been wanting to blog for soooo long! Just between the health from hell, and work, I've been left out of all the fun! But finally I got to take a break to show off some amazing goodies and just unwind. I don't know why, I just.. I find doing pictures to be relaxing. There's always something that you can learn, something new, but at the same time, it's like painting, I suppose. I just love editing a nice picture, though setting up is not always fun.

Luckily, collab is around the corner, and some stuff from the past from Trompe just fit the bill of what I was going for. I absolutely adore these little guys too from Mish Mish, they're just too adorable. Some play music, some look like they're dancing, but I decided to use the dancing ones to make it seem as if I was telling them some epic story, of untold parallel universe. Also, shameless self promotion, because after I set up the pose, I felt like something was missing, and then I thought.. how can you tell a tale of far off words and not think Final Fantasy? The two weapons laying by the bed, I actually made, and are available now at Fantasy Gacha Carnival, and they're both inspired by the Final Fantasy XIII series.

I don't know what else to write. I'm rambling again. C'est tout, my dears! <3

Credits:

Hair: Clawtooth: Poseidon's Gal - Girl Next Door by Bubbles Clawtooth for Collabor88

Skin: -Glam Affair - Cassia skin - America by Aida Ewing 

Body: Slink Physique Body by Siddean Munro

Ears: LONG_(L) [MANDALA]FANTASY_ELF_EARS by Kikunosuke Eel

Antlers: [Con.] Birch Antlers by Wavie Haller

Earrings: Wimey: Oerba Dia Earrings by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival 

Top: ~ Soedara~ Berhawa-nafsu by Marbella Pronovost

Cuff: Wimey: Farron Leather Cuff Brown and Black Mix by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Necklace: Wimey: Call of the Bahamut Choker by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Pipe: *MishMish* Pan Pipe by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88

"Pants": OrsiniSun Bikini The Savage Berry XS Noir by Hatili Ishtari

Trompe Loeil - Fiona Treebed Green by Cory Edo at Fameshed 

Wimey: Time of the Mog by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Wimey: Lance of Bahamut by Sash Arabello at Fantasy Gacha Carnival

[we're CLOSED] grass field green 02 by ḎЇИḠѺ (mandingo.quan)

*MishMish* Little Pan dancing B - Medium by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88

*MishMish* Little Pan dancing A - Dark by Aime Takaaki at Collabor88

Trompe Loeil - Rivershire Waterwheel V1.1 by Cory Edo

Lark - Atlantis Planter (GREY) by Sienia Trevellion at Collabor88

The Killer in Me is the Killer in You

I adore this round of Collab! Like.. absolutely mad about it. I love everything nautical, and the designers didn't fail to deliver in this theme. I'm feeling a little nostalgic today, so I decided to go for a darker mood picture, since.. like.. if you know anything about me, my pictures highly reflect my current mood. I guess that's why I love blogging so much, it's therapeutic to make a picture, let out your emotions, listen to some good tunes, and share your thoughts. I mainly enjoy doing pictures though, I love art, and being able to edit my art work makes me a happy person. Also, I got a new graphics card. Water looks beautiful. I didn't know it could look like that. Can you tell I'm a happy camper about that?

At any rate, I wanted to share some of the cute things available this round of collabor88, say hi, kinda forget about work for a day, and do a pretty picture. I'm gonna go to the credits before I ramble too much. You all enjoy!

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair- Liv skin- Asia by Aida Ewing for The Arcade

Hair: Clawtooth: Under the Sea - Girl Next Door by Bubbles Clawtooth for Collabor88

Hat: LaGyo_Pirate queen hat - Black by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88

Eyeliner: [KOOQLA] Z-eyeliner (Black) 03 by Rocketta Haven

Lipstick: [KOOQLA] Domino Lips 02 by Rocketta Haven

Earrings: LaGyo_Pirate earring & Rose Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88

Neck Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo by Celeste Forwzy

Necklace: LaGyo_Pirate necklace Gold by Gyorgyna Larnia for Collabor88

Top: Tee*fy Isobel Tank XS Black by Azure Electricteeth for Collabor88

Body Tattoo: Paperbag. Body of Roses Tattoo by Kex Blackheart

Bracelet: Wimey: Scholarly Bracelet by Sash Arabello

Jeans: [Cynful] Skinny Jeans - Blue by Cynthia Ultsch

Shoes: fri. - Wayfaring.Sandals (Charcoal) by Darling Monday for Collabor88

Pose: Marukin- Frais

*Slink Hands and flat feet worn in this picture. 

**Picture taken at this location