I've been challenged!

And here I thought I would be safe, but the lovely, aka mean, aka, still love you, Fae Eriksen from Fishy Strawberry has sent her challenge through facebook. 

So, I had to rush, because.. well, damn her. I was all comfy in bed, taking a break before the hell of building and texturing starts, and I get that. Might as well do it tonight before I forget and it goes in the back burner. 

Now I get to nominate some people. BWAHAHAHA. Okay, I'm going to do two sets of nominations because one is a list of people I would love to see do it because I think they would make an awesome picture. The other is a list of people that have to do it because I'm mean. So.. here it is. 

PEOPLE THAT MUST DO THE BUCKET CHALLENGE:

I challenge Sienia Trevellion, Andel Rhiadra, and Tea Soup. I WANT TO SEE PICTURES WITH BUCKETS OF ICE AND WATER, LADIES. 

Now, the second set is people that I really would enjoy to see doing it, but I don't know if they would, or even if they would hear about my challenge to them. So I'm going to put here Strawberry Singh, Kaelyn Alecto and Sylvia Olivier with her lovely family. 

I know it's a big list! But I'm going to be donating a large portion of my cash out when it comes in to ALS, so I guess that makes up for it. I did the picture, and the donation. So! That gives me a chance to double nominate, right? Right?! I dont' care. It's my life, I do what I want. I'm a rebel like that. 

For more information about this illness, and to find out how to donate, please visit: http://www.alsa.org/

To get a bucket in world, visit: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Iced%20Gems/232/127/22

                                                                                Credits: 

Hair: *ARGRACE* HIKARI - Cocoa [S] by Rika Oyen

Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 

Bathing suit: *BOOM* Ariara Bikini by Aranel Ah

Hands and feet: Slink Medium feet and Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Fist by Siddean Munro

Pose: Exposeur - Little Hearts 5 by Rubystarlight Writer 

O Captain, My Captain- Depression and Farewells.

I struggled for a long time on trying to figure out a good post to make after Robin Williams passed away. I didn't want to make something that was just for doing it, or writing it, I wanted my words and picture to represent something, to be meaningful. Be warned, the post below will contain personal information, and a look into what depression feels like, and why it's important to be aware of this deadly disease, because yes, it is a disease. If you're bothered by either of these themes, this might not be the post for you. 

Robin Williams' death hit me hard, I'm not going to lie, I still cry about it. A lot of people think it's ridiculous, since I didn't know him, but that's the point. We never took the time to get to know the selfless man that gave us laughs and filled our childhood with warm memories. He needed us, and we turned our backs. We didn't see the signs. We lost him too soon. This is what saddens me the most, and having been in that same boat, and having been saved, just, it's devastating. He was a legend. He was one of a kind. The world truly is a little less funny and bright, but as we've seen around, you're free. You're free from the chains of this world, from the guilt, and the hurt, free to be the you you've always desired to be, and to laugh freely like you made us laugh so many times. Rest in peace.

The thing that kills me though, is that not enough light is being shined upon how horrible depression is. He wasn't selfish. One of his last acts was sending a woman overseas a video of himself because meeting him was on her bucket list. He tried to make her laugh in his most desperate moment. If you haven't been through depression, I want you to take away all those thoughts that he was selfish, that sadness is just something you can cure. Get them out of your head right now, and clear them out. This is what depression feels like.

One day, there is something that happens, devastating, or maybe it's been going for a while, bringing lower and lower every day, or perhaps it came alone, suddenly. Regardless, it feels as if you're carrying a boulder on your back. You can't stand up, physically it hurts. Emotionally it hurts. There's a void in your heart, or inside you, it feels like ice. It hurts. It physically freezes you, and it hurts. But you have to keep going. Life goes on. This great boulder on your back, you can't take it off, you have to walk with it all day long, drag yourself step by step. People stare. You know they're talking about you. Not only are they talking about you, it feels like they're adding weight to this great boulder you have to carry. But you can't stop. No. If you stop, then they'll pile more on top of you. You have to run. You have to get away. And finally you do. For a moment you're free. You cry, you let it out. But the weight is still there. You talk to someone you trust, but the weight is still there, even if they have taken a couple of pebbles away from you. 

The day is over. Now is time to head home. Your loved ones are there. They stare at you. It huts. You're hurting them. You know they can see the boulder you're carrying, and they want to take it away from you. They want to carry it for you, but they can't get it off, they say only you can. But you've tried. Desperation sets in. You can't do anything. You're helpless to this great weight that you carry behind you. You can see this boulder growing, and it's going to crush your family too. No. It can't. It's your burden to carry. So you lock yourself up. Withdraw from others. That way, if they can't see you, you can't hurt them. They can't hurt you. It's good, right? No. Your family complains that you hide away. They're worried about you. The internet, your only outlet for freedom, makes fun of you. They "troll" you. You can't do it anymore. The weight is so heavy that it feels like you're suffocating. There must be an end. There must be a way to run away from the pain. You think, and there is. You go online and you find you're not alone. There are others, some urge you to go for help, others give you tips on how to end your suffering. You're at a crossroads now. But you've seek help. The doctors threw around illnesses at you that you knew you didn't have. You knew exactly what you had. Depression. The pills didn't help. You're screaming and they don't hear. Reach for the rope, it's time to end it all. 

This is what depression feels like. This is the road that many have walked. Some have survived. Some have perished and lost their battle with depression. I say to you, please. If you've ever felt like this. If you feel like this right now. Seek help. When you end your life, and that boulder is off your shoulders, it will attach to others around you. It's not worth it. You're not saving anyone. Go to someone, talk, eventually, the rock will fall, pebble by pebble.

And to you all that are in the internet, stop being trolls. There is no excuse to be abusive to others. To you all that find pleasure in humiliating others and shielding under the veil of anonymity, I beg you. Stop. Some of you have attacked me, with my daughter, and it hurts. You all know where to go to make the dagger stick. It's sickening. I'm glad I'm strong enough to only be mildly hurt by it, strong enough to know that you need more help than I do. But I will also say this. One day, one of those hateful messages you write will end a life. You will be the reason, the last drop, the last pebble, the last ounce of required weight that it took that person to be driven to insanity, and to do such a horrible thing. Don't be that person. Instead of attacking, lend a help, help them, they need your help. Instead of ending a life, save a life. 

Let's not forget Robin Williams, let's carry his memory in our hearts, share his gift with others, and use his last act as a lesson on how to be a better human being. On how you're not alone if you're depressed, and how you hurt the world once you're gone. It doesn't solve problems, it creates more. Let's all be a shoulder for others to cry, let's be humans, and take the monsters and devils out of us. Let's help someone that needs it today.

Credits:

Hair: + Lamb. Pandora - Variety/Ombre/Eccentric by Lamb Bellic at Collabor88

Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 

Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) by Harry Hyx

Necklace: Lark - Sweet Dreams Kitty Necklace by Sienia Trevellion 

Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage by Julliette Westerburg

Skirt: *BOOM* Athena Skirt Long  Pitch by Aranel Ah at Collabor88

Hands: Slink Hands by Siddean Munro

Body: Slink Physique by Siddean Munro

Shoes: -Pixicat- Royal.Shoe (Pink) by areve

Feet: Slink High Feet by Siddean Munro

Pose: Little Hearts from {.:exposeur:.} by Rubystarlight Writer 

Bad Things

Ack. I'm blogging again. Something must be wrong, there's a crack in the universe. QUICK, SOMEONE GET THE DOCTOR PLEASE!

Okay, so.. Um, I really don't have much to say, it's more like I've been trying to clean up my inventory  open random boxes I had just gotten in my inventory, and then this sort of happened. I kinda loved it and I was like, hey! It's a great time to work waste time and practice my PS skills, so then this kinda happened, and because The Fantasy Collective is so awesome this round, and I seriously regret not being a part of the designers this round cus rl kicked my butt and made me sick, I decided I'd blog some of my favorite items from there. Also, I had to use some Mandala, because obviously I'm kind of addicted to them lately. Damn talented people. SHARE THE SKILLS, DANG IT.

So, moving on, i think I should do the credits before I start to work waste more time until I literally can't anymore and I loose my mind. Thanks for reading, and I hope you guys visit TFC when it opens in the next couple days, the designers really knocked it out of the park!

Credits:

Hair: ~Tableau Vivant~ Barony Hair by M4ri1yn Magic for TFC (The Fantasy Collective)
Skin:  Lara Hurley- Fae Milky by Lara Hurley
Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Makeup: NOX. Voodoo Skull by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten) for TFC
Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)
Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)
Head Skull thingie: DRD witch doctor mask by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Cane voodoo thingie: DRD witchdoctor staff by Deathrowdesigns Resident for TFC
Necklace: A(spine)[MANDALA]SINRA2  Necklace/vintage gold by  菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)
Corset thingie?: [Haste] Facilier Possession Shorts Brown by Auston Harbour and Harvest Dezno for TFC
Jeans: {mon tissu} Denim - 1929 Cigarette ~ Gray
Boots: *League* Dhara Boots -Biscuit by Nena Janus
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Gesture by Siddean Munro
Pose: !bang- stand 320 by Luna Jubilee

Big Girls Cry

Okay, so obviously I'm obsessed with doing pictures lately. Which is good, I guess i just haven't had time lately for it, and I'm finally able to, and it's just.. overload of prettiness. That and I've learned some new editing techniques that just make me excited to do pictures as well. I don't know. Also, blame Sia, her music inspires me to do pictures. If you haven't heard her new album, you really should, her voice is completely amazing, and her lyrics truly move you.

At any rate. I just put this look together by randomly trying things on from my huge inventory that I didn't even know I had. I completely love the look, and the clock from Mandala is a nice little tough, it's in this round of Collabor88, and I'm absolutely in love with it! I do love Mandala and the realism of their pieces. It's just insane to me! So yeah, I had to pair it with one of their necklaces. Anyways. I hope you like today's look. Love and stuff <3

Credits:

Hair: [LeLutka]-CECILIA hair - BlondeFun By Thorra Charron 

Skin: [PF] Harley <Ivory> - FATPACK by Mochi (mochi.milena) (Includes Lipgloss, and eye shadow)

Freckles: NOX. Sunspots [Three] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)

Eyebags: Nox. Eyebags [Light] by Hadley Steiner (olyvia.stratten)

Eyes: .tsg. Mori Eyes - Ice Blue R (small shine) by ⓢⓤⓖⓐⓡⓟⓛⓤⓜ (eilfie.sugarplum)

Lashes: *MC* "Falsies" Eyelash - Upper+Lower by Ŧгєуα (freya.olivieri)

Necklace: Choker_B [MANDALA] by Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel)

Dress: Emery - Mesh Maxi Dress Marie Nite by Sun (sunami.beck)

Watch: (complete/LEATHER) [MANDALA]BILLIONAIRE_Fashionista(white) By Nyorai_Gold by 菊之介王子 (kikunosuke.eel) @ Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed by Siddean Munro

Nails: A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Serenata by Pho Vinternatt (photos.nikolaidis)

Pose/Chair: Trompe Loeil Wrought Iron Patio Chair  ~ Plain by Cory Edo 

When you're alone, Silence is all you'll know.

So I think everyone in Sl knows that I have a tiny addiction to Doctor Who (It's actually bigger on the inside, though) And I've been listening to the soundtrack all these days while working. Welp. Sorry tho. But this song always hits home, maybe it's because this episode is such a beautiful one. You know.. The Christmas Carol, with Abigail, And the Scrooge like old man that had his memory changed forever. I cry so hard at the ending, and let's face it, the doctor marrying Marilyn was also pretty hilarious. But the lyrics, and the beautiful melody of this song, with the magic on it, and all of it. Blahhhh. So anyways, I was going around SL, and I felt pretty, and I decided to make this picture. Basically, and share it and blog it, because.. why not? Collab is amazing. Go buy all the things, kay?

Also, the shoes are for a very special event. <3 Ulaa. It's a special fundraiser to help one of our own residents go home to see her mom along with her son. Her mom is dying from cancer, and it just hit close to home for so many reasons. I'm partaking in the event, along with some other great designers, like Enfant Terrible, these shoes work with Slink High Feet, and are only 250L, and are just gorgeous. I was left speechless, just had to buy it. Anyways! They're trying to reach for 200USD, so let's all work together and help her get there! If you want to donate personally, you can also do so http://www.gofundme.com/atht7w or just shop at the great event, starting tomorrow! Any little bit helps.

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Cassia skin - America by Aida Ewing 

Hair: Exile::Letters and lipstick by Kavar Cleanslate at Collabor88

Body: Slink Physique Body by Siddean Munro

Dress: Tee*fy Aphrodite Dress XS Teal by Azure Electricteeth at Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed - XSmall by Siddean Munro

Shoes: .Enfant Terrible. <3 Ulaa heels for <3 Ulaa

Feet: Slink Female Feet (AvEnhance) XS - High by Siddean Munro

Pose: !Bang by Luna Jubilee

What If...

Guys, something is off, I'm blogging too much. I do have the blogging itch though. And with all the events starting off tomorrow, I decided that I should do a quick blog post to show case some of my favorite things. I'll be like your Oprah. 

THIS IS SASH'S FAVORITE THIIIIIIIIIIINGS!!!!!

I bet you read that in Oprah's voice. You better have! Else Sash is very very very disappointed in you. But, first off, my crap. I made some crap. \o/. Oprah promotes her crap too. I don't want to hear it. I made the collar, which is scripted or unscripted, depending on what you want, original mesh and textures as always, and only 70L At the Fantasy Room, opening really soon. Then I also made the snake armband, in bright gold. I kind of did an experiment to see what kind of textures you guys like more, the bright, or the duller silver style. So we'll see. There's so much to learn with running a store, and trying to see what others like! URGH. So hard. But.. that's for we <3 RP, starting tomorrow. I love the dress from Peqe too, extremely sexy. The hair is also available in we <3 Rp tomorrow by Calico, and only 150L. With the headpiece. And another hair style. Total bargain.

So that's all for Sash's favorite things right now. I hope you enjoyed! Until next time. This has been....

SASH'S FAVORITE THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Credits:

*Calico* Eira - Fades  for We <3 Rp by Calico Ingmann (Head jewelry included)

-Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 by Aida Ewing

IKON Promise Eyes - Ice by Ikon Innovia 

Peqe - Elven 2.0_Black for We <3 RP by Inex Hax

.:Wimey:. Elegant Simplicity Collar for Fantasy Room by Sash Arabello

.:Wimey:. Medusa's Arm Cuff (Gold) for We <3 Rp by Sash Arabello

Hands- Slink by Siddean Munro

Pose by Luna Jubilee - !Bang Stands

And We'll Never Be Royals

So I loooooove this song, Royals, like.. the more I listen to it, the more listen to it, the more I obsess with it, and throughout my hospital stay, that's literally all I could play in my phone. I think I made my husband sick. Soz. Not soz, really. 

Anyways, I went to Collab, and that's all I could think when I saw the amazing stuff that the designers did this round. Can we please talk about the lightbulbs that Tegan Serin did from floorplan? I'm dying a little, and you can change them to any metal you want. Bronze, gold, silver, platinum, and charcoal. The textures are lovely, whenyou turn them on they don't look like a hot glow mess, and they're just fabulous. Then you have Trompe, and I adore these chairs, and the chandelier.. urgh. It's so classy, but not royal, it's just my style. The cat though, that's Sway's release for FLF, so.. make sure to grab it today while you can, so adorable, and unique, it's a cute must have piece. The rug is from Lark, and well, the scene just needed a cute rug to pull the look together, I think. 

For clothing, I did all from Collab, the shoes are fri.day, and they're adorable, point heels, and with a cute little emblem on the side, can't really see it, but it's adorable, and works with Slink feet. The skirt is from Tres Blah, it has a minor problem with the rigging though, so when you sit, the studs, and the skirt sometimes go different ways, I noticed, it's a little on the annoying side, but for standing, it's the most adorable skirt ever. And the top is also from Tres Blah, and it's just soooo cute, I can't live without it. The necklace is new from Yummy, and seriously, they never cease to amaze me, it's so elegantly understated that it's just hte perfect piece to pull off the theme. New hair by Bubbles Clawtooth too. I adoooore Clawtooth hair, possibly because I'm a little obsessed with Bubbles and how fabulous he is, but.. also because the textures are always more.. I don't even know how to call it, it's got more of the indie vibe that I love in my styles, and for some reason I'm digging weird colors lately, so I stuck with the Princess Bubblegum color, but.. yeah, I adore this hair style! 

So, that's my Royals inspired style, mostly from this Collabor88 round! Make sure to get it all because.. this round is truly amazing!

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Lily Doux *blonde* Available Soon.

Hair: Clawtooth: Heart Attack and Vine - Princess Bubblegum for Collabor88

Freckles: [okkbye] Serious Full Body Freckles  2.0 - Pale

Nails/Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hands - Relaxed with A:S:S - SLINK avatar enhancement system nails - Black on Black

Necklace: (Yummy) Metal and Diamonds - Day for Collabor88

Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage for Collabor88

Skirt: -tb- Studded Skirt - Black for Collabor88

Shoes: fri. - Amelia.Heels (Charcoal) for Collabor88

Pose: Del May - Hotness

Chandelier: Trompe Loeil - Industrial Chandelier Medium (11 LI) for Collabor88

Chairs: Trompe Loeil - Industrial Lounger Ice and Fawn (3 LI each) for Collabor88

Rug: Lark - Reyk Rug - Snow (2 LI)

Cat Lamp: Sway's Lamp [meow] unplugged - pink (1 LI) for FLF

Eiffel Tower Lamp: floorplan. eiffel tower marquee (1 LI) for Collabor88

Wall Lighting: floorplan. industrial lighting (6 LI each) for Collabor88

White Blank Page

I feel like I haven't blogged in forever! So I wanted to do something brief, I've just been getting into so many shenanigans lately it's hard to keep up with it all! I'm starting to work on mesh more, so that means my work here has been suffering, and with mesh comes stress, and with stress comes a destressant or something, which has been hanging around Inka, who will now be writing with us here in the blog! HOORAY for that! I'm actually uber exciter for Inka joining in here and being my blogging partner, and just.. partner in everything, I love that girl's face, and i've also been rp'ing a little.. but.. never the less, I decided to share some more new goodies, some from collab, others are old things, others are just.. I love them and you'll have to deal okay? Good. 

So Lelutka, new hair, and it comes with a hat.. obviously the hat didn't go with the outfit, but I totally loved the hair, it has a very free flowing form, and even though the picture /is/highly/edited/ the hair is for sure worth going over and demo'ing it. I mean.. comes with a hat, come on! Then I totally love this suit from Ison.. it's totally adorable, and just.. so mainly in a feminine manner, I love the draping work and just.. amazing work. Then.. we have fri.day who re released a couple of heels of hers, and I'm just totally in love, I'm loving slink add on shoes now, guys, I thought I wouldn't but.. I have to admit, the look of them is just amazing. So.. that brings us to accessories, LaGyo is one of my favorite places for jewelry, it's eccentric, high fashion, and just me, and it's also affordable, this set, the one with the cuff, actually comes with an HUD that allows you to change the color of the pieces so you can match your cuff to the outfit, or just make a color palette that you enjoy. The tattoo is new, from Tenjin for the Acid Lily event, which basically is all new, and has a new line up, and I'm uber excited. The tattoo is in a mesh sleeve, so you don't have to have it repeat in both arms, I kind of loved that, to be honest, and it also has the tattoo option if you want it repeating. Finally we have accessories by Remarkable Oblivion, whom I love, duh! I believe the headband is free in a group gift, if you join the group, though it might have been taken down.. you'll have to check, but the group is free to join! That's it for today guys! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Sash 01 ~ light rose ~ for Collabor88

Hair: [LeLutka]-GOGO hair - Pitch *newish*

Headband: RO - Diable Band - GG 

Eyes: IKON Ascension Eyes - Gray

Freckles: [PXL] Face freckles Medium (tattoo 2.x)

Moles: Essences - Beauty Marks

Lipstick: ROZENA/ Juicy Tint(t) ~ nude

Tattoo: Tenjin - Fairy Princess Tattoo for Acid Lily 

Cuff: LaGyo_Helen bangles Gold - SET B for Collabor88

Vest: ISON - razzle vest (black) for Collabor88

Top: Maitreya Bodysuit de la Ruche - White

Pants: ISON - razzle pleated pants (black) for Collabor88

Pin: RO - Insignia - KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON - Purchase Container

Shoes: fri. - Jane.Heels (Black) *New*

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 (Unpack)

Nails: *Fishy Strawberry* Slink Fingernails -Extreme French HANDS

Ring: LaGyo_Sasha ring gold

Pose: Del May - Flamingo fashionista

Debaser!

It's the start of a new week, and it took me a while to get another blog post rolling out, but this weekend was the week of hell! Mainly been in bed all of the weekend, and right now.. honestly? I can't wait to get back in it! Treatment takes a huge tole on me, and well, I'm just glad that blogging is my only job, else I'd be kinda messed up! But.. One thing I love about Mondays is the fact that  it's Meme Mondays! I loooove Berry's memes, most of the times it's a good way for our readers to get to know more about us, and it's also a good way to get to know ourselves just a little bit. Or sometimes just make fools of ourselves. Others like the movie poster challenge, have fun! This week is all about inventory. Welp. I hate inventory. That Narnia of doom that feels like it's going to explode. Granted, I've done an okay job at keeping things boxed.. just.. no. Bad Narnia. Bad! So.. I'm going to start with today's meme.. and scare a couple of people that, perhaps. 

What is your current inventory number? – 55,885. I do a lot of boxing, luckily, so it's managed to knock a good couple thousand out (pro tip I learned in plurk, sizes you don't use, like the L's and stuff, box them! That way they don't bulk you up. 

If you had to delete your whole inventory and could only keep one thing, what would it be? – Totally going to copy Berry here, and say my hair folder. I'd die if it went missing, like.. so much work, so much love, so many linden. 

What is the last thing you purchased? –  I actually don't remember, it's been about two weeks since I've gone shopping, I've been absolutely broke RL, so.. yeah, no shopping until check clears. I'm looking at you Compass Bank. 

Which item do you wear most often? – Essences skin. Any of them! Right now is the Sash skin, because.. I mean, Sash. 

When you search for the word penis, how many items pop up? (NO LYING!) – HAHA! I'm a good girl. Prove! NOTHING. http://gyazo.com/7dbc6444fe7d3c5c485724ac6d5c130b Gyazo'd for prove! I'm a very good and sweet and innocent girl! HAHA.

With that being said. BLOGGERS! Shoetopia is looking for bloggers: Make sure to apply here. Or don't. I mean.. more chances for me to get on :D. This post I made so I could apply actually. Some of my favorite shoes are these Gos shoes. I love the fact that they're black. Frilly, and they have a skin match system with a mesh foot to perfectly match my amazing skin. So by far.. I have to say that these Gos shoes are just.. amazing. And the platform.. I mean.. I can go around normal sl, and be okay sized with all the giant SL people.. and all without messign with my shape! I completely just adore these shoes. R3volt also has a new release.. these panties just.. they're way too adorable, I love the frills, I love the teal polkadots of it, and the little bows around them... my favorite short shorts now. I kept it very simple with the styling. Used one of the cuffs from Noodles, and the bag, which i love, from Adore&Abhor because.. I mean.. giant fortune cookie.. why wouldn't I love these amazing little bag? If your'e more into the eccentric, cute things in the grid, this is by far a must! And I finished it off with hair from Lelutka, and my Sash skin from Essences, new from Collabor88! That's really about it, I feel like I'm rambling on and on about awesome stuff, but.. that's about it folks! Happy Shopping! And if you're applying for Shoetopia, good luck! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Sash 03 ~ light rose ~ for Collabor88

Hair: [LeLutka]-JOLIE_RM hair/Dark Pitch

Top: [W&B] Cole Boatneck Top BLACK

Purse: +>A&A<+ Fortune Cookie Bag - Original 

Cuff: Noodles - Millie Rose Cuff Silver/Beige for Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1  (with LightRose Essences appliers)

Shorts: [R3] - Kacey Frills Panties [V3]

Shoes: [Gos] Boutique - Mae Platform - Black

Pose: Glitterati- Beauty015

Fly Me to the Moon

It's Collabor88's birthday again, it's weird.. thinking that I've been in SL this long. But let's see.. last year.. I didn't even blog. Not at this time, no, but I was getting incredibly close to coming into the blogging scene.. or rather making my mind up finally. Welp. I spent all my lindens in Collab and.. oh.. wait.. no.. no. That hasn't changed. :/. I guess I do get some review copies now, but.. I'd like to say.. blogging is not a hobby to get free crap. I mean, yes, the free stuff designers give us does help a lot. But! For the most part.. we buy. Just like you. If not more, just so we're able to keep up with the current trends and deliver you new inventive outfits to spice up your sl life. Rant over. But.. I'd like to add that.. in just one year, the growth of every single designer out there is just.. spectacular. I mean, Fri.day. I've always LOVED fri.day. Huge fan of her work, but.. you know what? The growth she's made in the past year, moving out of sculpts and layers, it's been huge! These shoes that go along with Slink feet (WARNING! YOU NEED SLINK MEDIUM FEET((POINTY TOE ONES)) IN ORDER TO WEAR THESE AMAZINGLY ADORABLE SHOES.) just come to prove the incredible growth that Darling Monday has had as a designer, and let's not even bring up her furniture shop, we'd be talking for DAYS. Tyr Rozemblum. I ADORE Tyr's designs.. Have for years. I actually told her this. I've been following her since.. well, back in the days of Tyranny designs when she had the skins, and stuff.. found her in a hunt, never let go as a costumer, and now look at her, in my opinion, she does some of the best mesh drape work I've seen, and the texturing, it's just.. simply divine. This dress speaks volumes of just how far Tyr has come as a designer, Love this. And you know what.. this year has also brought a lot of new designers, point in case, Aime Takaaki of MishMish. It seems like just yesterday that Celeste Forwzy came strolling around with the shrubbie, and saying in skype "oh.. MishMish" to the point that I would just double over laughing. Now.. months after that shrubbie, she's in the Arcade, in Collab, and look at these adorable things she's made, and that moon for limited 50? Can you really get any more adorable that that? Toy wise, she's one of my favorite designers, and she's one of the kindest people that I know. Finally, we have the Sash skin, which.. I love. Yes, it not only has my name on it, but it looks so adorable, I just can't with it. I've followed Inka since.. well.. back when I used to frequent the dressing room, and now she's also in the line up for collab, even if it's just as a guest. All of these people.. have such an amazing talent, and just looking back at how the year has passed, and how they've grown, well, I get a little sentimental. That's really all I have to say.. just.. make sure to visit Collab in this special event, their birthday! And get some amazing stuff to add to your Narnias! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Sash 02 ~ light rose ~ brunette for Collabor88

Hair: Exile::Hearts Don't Breakeven Natural Fusion

Freckles: [PXL] Face freckles Medium (tattoo 2.x) (new)

Moles: Essences - Beauty Marks

Eyes: IKON Ascension Eyes - Gray

Jewelry: .Pekka. Pyr cross set - Gold

Dress: [aux]Studded Cocktail - Plum for Collabor88

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 (Unpack)

Leggings:[Aux]Low Rise Leggings - Black 

Shoes: fri. - Peggy.T-Straps (Midnight) for Collabor88

Moon: *MishMish* Sitting on the Moon for Limited50

Peacoks: *MishMish* White and Blue Peacocks Pack for Collabor88

Challenge Yourself

Today I want to part away from the usual ramblings of fashion and decor. Today it's something very deep, and sad. A serious subject that in my opinion, blogger or not.. this is a challenge we should all do, and take part in. I am writing this from the bottom of my heart, and with nothing short of brutal honesty. I don't know what will come out, but.. you've been advice. If you're looking for pretty light hearted funny stuff. Today's not it. Sorry. But this is just too serious and important in my opinion.

It's with a heavy heart that I say that Millie Gears has passed. I did't really know her. I saw her around, and saw her plurks, heard about her, read her blog. Still, her death comes as a surprise. It's always sad to see a good person go so soon. So undeserved. And I kick myself in the ass every moment when I think about this. Why? I lost the opportunity to get to know someone wonderful, a person that filled so many lives in SL with such joy and beauty. I'm truly sorry that I let some sort of twisted perception of shyness get in the way of this. 

Natalee Oodles, one of my closest friends, has actually started a challenge in memory of Millie. I find this to be beautiful, and fitting, and if I were to die, it would be nothing but an honor for people to think of me this way. Instead of mourning the loss, trying to move forwards, and inspire others to do the same. I'm in tears when I say this is the most beautiful memorial you can give a person. Thank you Nat, you've started something that hopefully will inspire many more to do the same, and make Millie's footstep in this world never fading. The challenge can be found here, along with Natalee's very heart felt post. With that said.. we're supposed to say what we're thankful for, and what we would change, or rather improve in ourselves. So.. I'll start.

What am I thankful for? I'd say life, but.. Natalee already said that. Instead, I'm going to say every single meaningful moment that I have with my friends and family. I can't help but to feel like I have a clock ticking away, that will soon run out, doctors don't really help with that. But it's because of this.. that every moment I laugh with a friend, every moment I hug my husband, when we kiss, when I get to see my sister, when I hear my father laughing, when I tell my mother how much I love her.. that's what I'm thankful for. In a world with so much hate and ugliness, there can be so much beauty found. I never understood what my father felt when he was given two months to live. Granted, it's been ten years, but.. that burden, that need to make everything be worthwhile. Or my grandmother's words in what was basically her death bed, unity, love.. I cherish all of that, and I now fully understand them. When you see someone.. instead of hurting them, of breaking them down, tell them just how much they mean to you. How much you love them. Let Millie be a lesson to all of us, why waste time in bitterness? They could be gone tomorrow. You could be gone tomorrow. Instead of doing this, build them up, share a moment that will cherish for a lifetime. No matter how long or short that lifetime is. 

As for what I need to improve on? Lord.. there's so much. For one, I'm done with negativity. Really. Done. Why waste our time saying this person is that, or this.. when.. really, does it even matter? If you're not going to help that person become a better them.. then why fill yourself with such poison? The gossiping among friends, or others.. the crap we spread around, and how it makes us feel that there's some sort of entitlement to the way we feel. Like for example, when we see someone wearing something we hate, and we bash them for it! Most of us do it, I know this for a fact, but.. what's really the point? At the end of the day, all we could be doing is hurting someone. And what's so good about that? Nothing really. It makes us into the same type of people that we hate. I'm done with this. No more. I'm done with shyness too. I usually feel like I'm either not good enough, or too good for someone. Bullshit. Seriously, Normally I don't cuss in my blog, but that's just bullshit, Sasha. Everyone here is an equal, with different tastes, needs, desires. Who are we to say what's right and wrong? No one. The sad truth is that we're no one. So what am I going to do about this? I'm dropping it all. Clean slate for everyone, and anything. Whatever thoughts, believes, likes, or desires you have, they're no worse or better than mine. I'm not going to feel better, or worse about myself based on this. I will talk to you like I talk to a friend, and if you hurt me, that's on you buddy, I'll be alright, but my conscience is clear. And I'm done being shy, it'll probably take some work but.. why? All I'm doing is hurting myself. I'm missing out in chances of getting to know some really amazing people, like I did with Millie. And that just won't do. Not anymore. 

So.. that's all for me. What about you? What are you thankful for? And what will you improve? Take a good look at yourself. Be critical. It'll hurt, but.. that's the first step to being a better us. Millie, I didn't know you, really, and I'm sorry for this. But thank you. This taught me a lot of things, and for this.. I'm going to try to be a better me. So even though I didn't know you, you've just made a big impact in my life. And for that, I thank you ever so much. To the rest of you, again, I beg you, take this seriously, let Millie's life, whether you knew her, or not, teach us all a lesson. A lesson that we should never take things for granted. People for granted. You never know when they'll be gone. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Sash skin for Collabor88 (opens tomorrow!)

Hair: [LeLutka]-DULCINA hair - Praline

Eyelids: Slink Mesh Lids and Lashes

Lipstick: ROZENA/ Juicy Tint(t) ~ cheeese

Tattoo: !Fablab! Believe Tattoo

Top: Tee*fy Milena Ruffle Blouse White

Skirt: Tee*fy Odette Skirt Black/Metallic Sliver

Bracelet: Noodles - Fairy Tale Charm Bracelet Gold v2

Pose: !bang - stand 321

I've Got a Love that Keeps Me Waiting

Okay, so after the craziness with hair fair, that still is being worked on, I needed a day break, but.. I'm back people! And what I have today is something that's pretty cool. Auxiliary has always been one of my favorite stores, and now Tyr actually released these amazing sweats that... well, to be honest, if she didn't have teal, I might have defriended her and cried forever, but.. Mint is close enough. Luckily. Anywayyyys, away from the random crazy rambles, I was actually pretty astounded when I put them on. They're not my type of release normally, I like more girly styles, but they're just so well made, the folds, the way it moves with the body, it's just absolutely amazing, and this picture doesn't even begin doing it justice, they're seriously worth the money and the trying it on. I also have a new tat that a friend of mine made, and well, it's cute, so showing it off, actually two of them, can't really see the neck one too well, but it's actually a snake! Like Slytherin. I'm normally petrified of snakes, but this is cartoonish and cute enough to set me at ease and get my Slytherin spirit on. Finally we have the hair from Auxiliary, it's available in Hair Fair, and they have some pretty cool packs that let you change you and be original when you want. So.. I think that's about it, I'm feeling pretty crazy and random, so I'm going to leave it at that before I bore you all! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences Clover 02 *sunkissed* brunette

Hair: [AUX] Hair_CutiePie - CottonCandy for Hair Fair

Necklaces: ! .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper Necklaces (S and Rare)

Neck Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo

Top: -tres blah- Tied Up Tank - White

Tummy Tat: [GOTHA] Satan's Child Tattoo

Sweats: [Aux] Loose Sweats - Mint for SWF 

Feet: Slink Avatar Enhancement Flat Feet

Shoes: Blueberry Kimmy *Mesh* Sneakers 

Pose: (marukin) [rhodolite] pacific beauty

I Am A Broken Doll, And You Are The Puppeteer

Meep. I've never done a nude picture.. and to be honest, they're soooo hard! It took me forever and ever to get it all done right, and still I find places where it could have been better, but still, I'm pretty happy with how this turned out, fairly classy, high drama, just what I wanted. I really wanted to showcase this essences skin, and the make up layers in a classy non boring way, because.. amazing skins are so hard to find, and I love this one, I honestly do. The Opera skin has been the first one in such a long time that I rushed in to buy just when it came out. Now, I have to say, the one thing I didn't really like about it was the fact that.. it had no freckles. FRECKLES! So for a long time, I just wore my own. But.. lo' and behold, in Cosmetics fair.. FRECKLES AND MOLES. By Essences. I cried. I did almost cry tears of happiness. And then becoming a blogger for them yesterday.. I got them, and I can't thank Inka enough for this.. and yes, I'm still fan girling over being chosen as a blogger for them, but.. this pack is amazing. And lipstic, and tanning lotion, and eyeliner.. specially for essences skins. YES. I mean, one of the battles I have with make ups in sl is that sometimes it doesn't go right with your shape, which turns out to be a pain and a headache for everyone involved, so... when the skin maker has their own make up layers that you can use to play around and make the skin your own, I adore it. I mean.. at one point or another we start looking alike. Similar hair, same skin.. same eye maker.. but then we can add some touches that.. they just bring the avatar alive, and add a new flair to them. So to Inka, thanks for this! These are amazing. And you can get them too, don't forget! At the Cosmetics Fair! Go out and get all the goodies while it lasts guys! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Opera 04 *Sunkissed*

Hair: TRUTH HAIR Tawny - Browns01Fade

Jewelry: Dona Flora PRINCESS  Set

Eyeliner: Essences Eyeshadow 06 *dark* for Cosmetics Fair

Eyes: IKON Ardent Eyes - Moor

Freckles and Moles: Essences - Beauty Marks and Freckles Type A for Cosmetics Fair

Lipstick: Essences - Endless Night Lipstick 09 for Cosmetics Fair

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 

Feet: Slink Avatar Enhancement Flat Feet 

Pose: Apple Spice - Pinup Pose 007

Will You Follow Me Into the Dark?

It's a wonderful day, guys! And I still am messing around trying to get better at photoshop, today, I wanted to do something.. from the back and sexy, mainly because of this amazing dress by R3volt. Except I used it as a shirt. But.. Oh well, it looks amazing. It reminds me of like being bound, but at the same time, feeling some sort of release.. I don't know, I'm weird. Hush. At any rate, I spent forever getting this picture just right, and I'm pretty proud of it, some couple things I would change still, but.. it's really good, and it fits the feeling that I had today.. would you follow me into the dark? I also wanted to do Berry's memes. I like people getting to know me a bit better, so.. Let's do it, Berry! Bring on your weird questions, I'll lie and make myself look good. Okay.. okay.. kidding, I'll try to be honest! 

Which was the last sim you visited? (Other than your home) Umm.. where I took this picture? Kingdom of Jordan

Does your avatar look like the real you? Some! I've got the same skin tone, and hair, the rest it fluctuates, and she has a better body than I do. That bitch. 

Do you wear underwear/panties underneath your clothing when out and about on the grid? Most of the time, yes! Lol. I'm a dork. Sometimes I forget though. Woops. 

If you won a million linden dollars, what would be the first thing you buy inworld? I'd just buy all the things. There's no limit. I'd run out of them in like an hour. I'd just go around seriously buying all the things. 

Have you ever bought something in SL and then realized afterwards that you had already owned it from before? FML. I hate when this happens. Or you buy something, and then you get it as a blogger review copy, and you're like.. FML. Seriously? How about sending it an hour ago. WAH! Not really but.. yeah, I've just glared at the computer a couple times when that's happened. 

Have you ever done anything in Second Life that would be considered illegal in real life? I've broken into people's houses and set them on fire?

If you could go out on a date with any other avatar, who would it be? James Matfield, but he pretty much crushed my SLife. I'm going to go cry in a corner now. 

Who, in your opinion, was the greatest avatar to ever slive? Hm, I think Natalee Oodles. She has a style that's similar to me, and I'd kill for her Narnia. 

What is the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done inworld? Happened recently, I was testing RLV permissions for a collar I was making, and I IM'ed Strawberry Sign to show her something, but.. the collar wouldn't let me talk. And I was like.. WTF?! and then she replied, and three times, and I was like.. HOGOD, where can I hide my face at that moment? worst off, I couldn't figure out how to stop it! Meanwhile the guy next to me probably was laughing, and I'm there like.. hogod, I ruined my slife. Figured it out and IM'ed her, and she just laughed at me. Yeah... smooth. 

If your avatar had a mind of its own, what do you think it would say to you? she wouldn't say anything to me, I think she'd just constantly smack me.

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Opera 04 *Sunkissed*

Hair: TRUTH HAIR Candy - Browns01Fade

Top: [R3] Meg Dress [V1] 

Pants: Zaara : [Mesh] Kavya summer pants *ebony*

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 

Feet: Slink Avatar Enhancement Flat Feet 

Pose: Apple Spice - Innosence Pose 001

Someday You Will Be Loved

As of lately I'm feeling a little nostalgic, I am not really sure why, but.. I guess at times we all do. We feel the void, and loneliness, and blah.. I'm not going to go into it, but I think we've all been there, and I think this picture really captures how I feel at this moment, someday I will be loved. But.. blah. Maybe it's time for me to start stripping down the layers and opening up to others, and letting more of my "skin" show. So.,.. yes, there's more than meets the eye to this picture. On the other hand, there's also a new Insatiable Fashions release. It's a very cutesy underwear set that is just.. so girly and adorable that I had to show it off. Also.. Pekka, they did this for one of the newer events, and I'm just in love with this set. I mean.. I love crosses, not only do they line up with my believes, but they make a powerful fashion statement. So I love it. So now I'm off to try to open myself up once more, some more, and maybe.. just maybe.. someday I'll be loved. Night guys! And.. Happy shopping! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Opera 04 *Sunkissed*

Hair: Exile::Hearts Don't Breakeven Natural Fusion

Lipstick: ROZENA/ Juicy Tint(t) ~ nude for Cosmetics Fair

Eyeliner: {.essences.} Fallulah Eyeliner

Eyes: IKON Ardent Eyes - Moor

Jewelry Set: .Pekka. Pyr cross set - Gold

Lingerie Set: [Insatiable Fashions] {Lingerie} Dotty  - Tealriffic 

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 

Feet: Slink Avatar Enhancement Flat Feet

Pose: Apple Spice - Cute 004

And We Don't care About the Young Folk

And Arcade is upon us.. an after opening a lot of goodies, crying and agonizing about the things we wanted, and parading around in our new goodies, I decided to blog about some of my favorite things.. keep in mind, oh, there's plenty more, this is just what fit with the theme I had in mind, and the new exile hair for fameshed! And the new tank top from E! that I'm just absolutely in love with. So.. here's a couple of things, both wears, and furniture goodies. If you haven't had the chance to go to the Arcade yet.. you should, I mean, all the goodies are just amazing, the designers really did do a lot of amazing stuff this round, all of it is so.. I don't know, playful that it really reminds me of my childhood, been rather nostalgic while opening my goodies. Anyways, round one of the Arcade goodies that I have, enjoy! And visit now! It's worth the fighting to get in.

Credits:

Worn:

Skin: Essences ~ Opera 04 *Sunkissed*

Hair: Exile::Hold On Loosely Natural Fusion for Fameshed

Headphones: (fashionably dead) Radio Headphones - Baby Blue for the Arcade

Earrings: MIAB - Electric Feel - Black

Bows: Noodles - Mirror Mirror Bow for the Arcade

Top: Eclectic! Meghan Top (Night) for Fameshed

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Relax (Unpack)

Bracelet: *BOOM* Friendship Bracelet (Violet) LFTfor the Arcade

Shorts: (fashionably dead) High Waist Cutoffs - Dark Denim

Boots: (fashionably dead) Bossy Boots - Plain Blue for the Arcade

On set:

floorplan. sleepover tent gacha / paris RARE for the Arcade (22 land impact)

[Commoner] Photo Album / Burn Book RARE for the Arcade (1 land impact)

!O: Teacup Piglet Gatcha [Cranky Pirate] for the Arcade (3 land impact)

!O: Teacup Piglet Gatcha [Ol' Gentleman] for the Arcade  (2 land impact)

!O: Teacup Piglet Gatcha [Piggy Who?] for the Arcade (2 land impact)

!O: Teacup Piglet Gatcha [Harry Porker] for the Arcade(2 land impact)

*Second Spaces* backgammon set for the Arcade (1 land impact)

*~*HopScotch*~* Where to? *rare* for the Arcade (11 land impact)

{what next} Scooter Aubergine mesh for the Arcade (14 land impact)

floorplan. teardrop trailer gacha / pink lady (24 land impact)

Domineaux Effect Garden Wall - Old Orchard Edition (24 land impact)

Domineaux Effect Outdoor Fireplace - Old Orchard Edition (14 prims)

Youth Without Youth

Sooooo... I have a giant pencil, whatever argument you might have is invalid. Yup. So.. Arcade is almost upon us.. and I wanted to do a huge post, but.. for the last two days I've been working hard on the way the blog looks.. and I finally got done today. But.. it meant this post had to suffer a little. I have another picture that I will edit later when I wake up, and I have another shot with some awesome goodies to do pretty soon. Olive has some AMAZING stuff. It's pretty random, but for us that are odd, and ecclectic.. I mean.. giant pencil, poop mobile? Need I say more? Further more.. it's all just so cute, and they have fez lamps. Fezzes are cool. So, I wanted to do something cute for today, and this is just an adorable little look I compose together.. ChiMia is a new store on the blog, and they're textures are pretty cool! I do love the HUD method for the fat packs, lets you change colors of your outfit.. without cluttering your inventory with a fat pack. Love. I guess that's about it.. I'll update this a little later! Or add.. I'm not sure. But.. yeah! Here go the credits, because I'm tired as heck!

Credits:

Skin: Essences ~ Opera 04 *Sunkissed*

Bow: Noodles - Big Bow Headband Black

Necklace: .Olive. the Folded Golden Paper MYSTERY #1 

Hair: [e] Caramel - Brown 08 (Discontinued D:)

Shirt: ChiMia :: Melanie tube top - dotted dark

Bracelet: Noodles - Fairy Tale Bracelet

Ring: Noodles - The Boy Who Lived Ring Gold 

Pencil: .Olive. the Grandma's Treasures - Hug me Pencil for the Arcade (Opens June 1st)

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1

Shorts: League Booty-Shorts~Light Blue

Leggings: [Auxiliary] Tights - Suspended

Shoes: [monso] My Fancy Flat Shoes - Pointed Cat/ Red

Pose: aDORKable Poses: Daydream II 2