O Captain, My Captain- Depression and Farewells.

I struggled for a long time on trying to figure out a good post to make after Robin Williams passed away. I didn't want to make something that was just for doing it, or writing it, I wanted my words and picture to represent something, to be meaningful. Be warned, the post below will contain personal information, and a look into what depression feels like, and why it's important to be aware of this deadly disease, because yes, it is a disease. If you're bothered by either of these themes, this might not be the post for you. 

Robin Williams' death hit me hard, I'm not going to lie, I still cry about it. A lot of people think it's ridiculous, since I didn't know him, but that's the point. We never took the time to get to know the selfless man that gave us laughs and filled our childhood with warm memories. He needed us, and we turned our backs. We didn't see the signs. We lost him too soon. This is what saddens me the most, and having been in that same boat, and having been saved, just, it's devastating. He was a legend. He was one of a kind. The world truly is a little less funny and bright, but as we've seen around, you're free. You're free from the chains of this world, from the guilt, and the hurt, free to be the you you've always desired to be, and to laugh freely like you made us laugh so many times. Rest in peace.

The thing that kills me though, is that not enough light is being shined upon how horrible depression is. He wasn't selfish. One of his last acts was sending a woman overseas a video of himself because meeting him was on her bucket list. He tried to make her laugh in his most desperate moment. If you haven't been through depression, I want you to take away all those thoughts that he was selfish, that sadness is just something you can cure. Get them out of your head right now, and clear them out. This is what depression feels like.

One day, there is something that happens, devastating, or maybe it's been going for a while, bringing lower and lower every day, or perhaps it came alone, suddenly. Regardless, it feels as if you're carrying a boulder on your back. You can't stand up, physically it hurts. Emotionally it hurts. There's a void in your heart, or inside you, it feels like ice. It hurts. It physically freezes you, and it hurts. But you have to keep going. Life goes on. This great boulder on your back, you can't take it off, you have to walk with it all day long, drag yourself step by step. People stare. You know they're talking about you. Not only are they talking about you, it feels like they're adding weight to this great boulder you have to carry. But you can't stop. No. If you stop, then they'll pile more on top of you. You have to run. You have to get away. And finally you do. For a moment you're free. You cry, you let it out. But the weight is still there. You talk to someone you trust, but the weight is still there, even if they have taken a couple of pebbles away from you. 

The day is over. Now is time to head home. Your loved ones are there. They stare at you. It huts. You're hurting them. You know they can see the boulder you're carrying, and they want to take it away from you. They want to carry it for you, but they can't get it off, they say only you can. But you've tried. Desperation sets in. You can't do anything. You're helpless to this great weight that you carry behind you. You can see this boulder growing, and it's going to crush your family too. No. It can't. It's your burden to carry. So you lock yourself up. Withdraw from others. That way, if they can't see you, you can't hurt them. They can't hurt you. It's good, right? No. Your family complains that you hide away. They're worried about you. The internet, your only outlet for freedom, makes fun of you. They "troll" you. You can't do it anymore. The weight is so heavy that it feels like you're suffocating. There must be an end. There must be a way to run away from the pain. You think, and there is. You go online and you find you're not alone. There are others, some urge you to go for help, others give you tips on how to end your suffering. You're at a crossroads now. But you've seek help. The doctors threw around illnesses at you that you knew you didn't have. You knew exactly what you had. Depression. The pills didn't help. You're screaming and they don't hear. Reach for the rope, it's time to end it all. 

This is what depression feels like. This is the road that many have walked. Some have survived. Some have perished and lost their battle with depression. I say to you, please. If you've ever felt like this. If you feel like this right now. Seek help. When you end your life, and that boulder is off your shoulders, it will attach to others around you. It's not worth it. You're not saving anyone. Go to someone, talk, eventually, the rock will fall, pebble by pebble.

And to you all that are in the internet, stop being trolls. There is no excuse to be abusive to others. To you all that find pleasure in humiliating others and shielding under the veil of anonymity, I beg you. Stop. Some of you have attacked me, with my daughter, and it hurts. You all know where to go to make the dagger stick. It's sickening. I'm glad I'm strong enough to only be mildly hurt by it, strong enough to know that you need more help than I do. But I will also say this. One day, one of those hateful messages you write will end a life. You will be the reason, the last drop, the last pebble, the last ounce of required weight that it took that person to be driven to insanity, and to do such a horrible thing. Don't be that person. Instead of attacking, lend a help, help them, they need your help. Instead of ending a life, save a life. 

Let's not forget Robin Williams, let's carry his memory in our hearts, share his gift with others, and use his last act as a lesson on how to be a better human being. On how you're not alone if you're depressed, and how you hurt the world once you're gone. It doesn't solve problems, it creates more. Let's all be a shoulder for others to cry, let's be humans, and take the monsters and devils out of us. Let's help someone that needs it today.

Credits:

Hair: + Lamb. Pandora - Variety/Ombre/Eccentric by Lamb Bellic at Collabor88

Skin: Lara Hurley-Fae Milky Fatpack by Lara Hurley 

Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) by Harry Hyx

Necklace: Lark - Sweet Dreams Kitty Necklace by Sienia Trevellion 

Top: -tb- Banded Cropped Top - Vintage by Julliette Westerburg

Skirt: *BOOM* Athena Skirt Long  Pitch by Aranel Ah at Collabor88

Hands: Slink Hands by Siddean Munro

Body: Slink Physique by Siddean Munro

Shoes: -Pixicat- Royal.Shoe (Pink) by areve

Feet: Slink High Feet by Siddean Munro

Pose: Little Hearts from {.:exposeur:.} by Rubystarlight Writer 

Fix You

Recently I don't know why, but I've been feeling more down than usual. I guess it's just the date, and being afraid. God only knows. But as the fear comes, just you feel more isolated from people. Even if it's not true. Even if you're the person alienating yourself. It's an odd feeling to have, and I guess lately I've been longing to reach out to someone, bahhhh. Feelings suck. Fear sucks. Doctors suck. Yeah, I think that's the moral of the story. Everything just urgh. Then when I hear this song I want to cry, because it's like an anthem to myself kinda deal, just.. I don't know. My thoughts are very mumbled tonight. I am so sorry. But anywaysssss

I put up a cute outfit that goes with the way I'm feeling right now. Just... left alone, and scared and blah. Whatever, pretend the words to this post don't suck. Please? Sounds like a deal <3 Anyways, let's just go on to the credits because I can't think for the life of me.

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 @ Collabor88 (Aida Ewing)

Hair: [elikatira] Leighann - Essentials (Elikapeka Tiramisu)

Headband: Noodles - Bearmuffs Strawberry (Natalee Oodles)

Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) (Harry Hyx) 

Tattoo: "Jim"-Cunning Tattoo (Celeste Fowrzy)

Necklaces: .Olive. the Mine! Zodiac Necklace - Sagittarius [Gold].

.Olive. the Folded Golden Paper Letter Necklace - S (Naminaeko Resident)

Bracelet L: [tea.s] Regal Gem Bracelet Silver - Pure for Fantasy Collective (Tea Soup)

Bracelet R: Wimey: Wisdom of a Madman Bracelet (VIP Gift) (Sash Arabello)

Top: {mon tissu} Joy Tee - Mon Tissu Soiree VIP Gift (Anouk Spot)

Overalls: [monso] My Overall - Dark Blue (Morphine Janick)

Shoes: fri. - Lovegood.Heels (Black) (Darling Monday)

Pose: Marukin - Triple Tea

Alien

So, there's two things in my agenda today before I head into the oblivion that sucks out my life that we call here "the hospital". I'm going to be gone for a little bit, I hope, but just in case, I wanted to do one last blog post before heading out, just because I missed working on pictures really, and there are two things that stole my attention today. First off...

Monday Meme. Oh, and Berry. It's after midnight. Hence... I did do the blog in time. You know. On Monday. UNLIKE SOME OF US. Kidding. I have nothing but love for that wonderful mango loving woman. But today, it's all about what huds and what not we use in SL in order to make it easier to take pictures. So Im posting my raw shot with the things that I use in here so you can see what my interface is when I take pictures. And just why the heck I lag out so much.

1. Anypose: Berry blogged this one too but it's just that amazing, okay? It lets you control your eyes, no more blinking while taking pics, and it lets you have facial expressions if you want too. Amazeballs.

2. Animare: How many times have you gotten your hand stuck in your skirt, or something? It majorly sucks! And it's like.. 30 minutes AT LEAST to properly fix in photoshop, or do the layering trick with PS where you have to take more than one shot. But let's face it, it takes away from your shadows, and it messes up everything in the world. 

3. Kokopelli HUD: This HUD is actually free, and though I'd like to be able to organize it, let's be honest like.. I never will, I'd rather just endless scroll through there if I'm out taking a picture and let people laugh at me. I think that HUD has about 200 poses, and still no where even near the cap.

4. Phototools. It comes in Firestorm, and I use it to do a quick shot with shadows, most of the time I'll just layer that shot on top of this one, and just keep the shadows, saves me time and what not. And I love that phototools just lets you adapt everything graphic wise in one little window. Makes firestorm my go to place for pictures, even though it's laggier. 

My second theme of the day has to do with... well. .feeling alienated, really. It's no secret that I used to be a huge rp'er. I miss it to this day, so so much, but with blogging and designing, I just don't have time for anything anymore. But I still do have a twitter account, where I follow some of my old friends that rp. Sometimes it's hilarious, and I wonder really if I used to look that crazy rp'ing, because, I swear, as an outsider reading these, you'd think this is a bad episode of some badly scripted reality show.

But here's the thing though, I was looking there, and came across something that I personally found offensive. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything, but at any rate I did. I said that it was offensive, and their reply was "Oh, it's just an rp post. I'm fat too". I had to stop for a second. Hold on. So let me get this straight. The fact that you're rp'ing makes it okay to be insulting towards others? Or post things that can be insutling? And why does it matter your size, or color, or anything? I honestly think, it's like the "n" word. If you don't want other people calling you it, then you shouldn't call others of your race it either. Just.. no. It's wrong. At least I feel that way. So I have to wonder now.. just.. where do we draw the line?

Putting aside the second issue, let's focus on how far can we go with our words and actions to be offensive, and still be okay with it being just a character. My belief is, if you say it, you feel at least in a part inside of you that it's true. Regardless of a character or not, you're giving credibility to the problem. Now, there are other people aside of you that read that, people that don't rp, people that don't know even what rp is. And when they read these things, they take it to heart. You hurt them. Even while rp'ing. Your actions and words ic can break someone oocly. Now.. it might just be me, I don't know. Maybe I've just been away from RP for too long now, but this is genuinely how I feel. So I just have to pose this question.. just how far is too far on what we say in an RP account?

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Mokatana skin - America 04 @ Collabor88 (Aida Ewing)

Hair: [e] Richelle - Essentials (Elikapeka Tiramisu)

Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes - Ice (Ikon Innovia)

Glasses: ISON - pegley glasses (tortoise) (Harry Hyx)

Necklace: Wimey- Lady Mary's Pearls- Lingering Spring @ Seasons Story (Sash Arabello)

Shirt: The Secret Store - Mary Pleated Shirt - Milk @ Collabor88 (Maylee Oh)

Skirt: Tee*fy Edela Buttoned Skirt Mint (Azure Electricteeth)

Purse: *{Junbug}* Princess Clutch in Pearl [Relaxed Hold] @ Collabor88 (Juno Mantel)

Shoes: [AUX] Footwear - Heartbreaker  - Seafoam (Crushed Clarity)

Pose: !Bang Stand 320 (Luna Jubilee)

Welcoming Fall- Preview of a Couple Season Story Things!

So I know a lot of people are getting a little event-ed out, meaning there are so many events in SL that it's almost like it's pointless to go to the main store, just because designers get into so many events that they forget to do releases for their store. I feel you, I feel like that a lot of the times, however, I do still love a good event because it lets me see the creativity of designers, along with discovering new places and stores that other wise I probably wouldn't have known about. So, that brings me to this new event named Seasons Story. It's amazing cute, and I just adore it, it's got a lot of the bigger Japanese/Asian brands, but still has some main stream stores like Floor Plan and Wasabi Pills in it! I just love everything about this, the set up, the idea, the items, the quality, and the feel to this event, so... well done, it's a home run in my opinion. 

I decided to do two different looks just because there's so much I want to show you guys, and I wanted to start today, I originally wanted to do more looks for this post, but I'm going to have to divide it, too many amazing things to go through. I have to say that also the pose makers did a fabulous job this event, it gave me so much inspiration for pictures, so.. to everyone in this event, thank you, you've given me so much to work with that I'm actually overwhelmed by inspiration! Now on to the looks and the slurl so you can go and check out this amazing new event because.. trust me,you really don't want to miss out on all this fabulousness! 

Credits:

Picture 1:

Skin: Essences - Sash *peche* brunette (Coming Soon)

Hair: tram  C409 hair / brown (size40)

Freckles: [PXL] FullBody freckles

Moles: Essences - Beauty Marks

Top: tram -gathered shoulder blouse(MESH)[navy] for Season Story

Jeans: {mon tissu} Denim - 1929 Cigarette ~ Gray

Boots: ISON - cult riding boots (black) for Collabor88

Pose: .::Kirin Poses::. Autumn Leaves Pose & Prop for Season Story

Picture 2:

Skin: Izzie's - Katya Skin brown pale GB Fr CL for Season Story

Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Akiko Mesh Hair - Chocolate for Season Story

Top: B.C.C Breakfast At Tiffany's knit Black for Season Story

Undershirt: [W&B] Cole Boatneck Top TAUPE GREY

Skirt: :pesca:cotton lace skirt white/ for Season Story

Shoes: [Gos] Boutique - FlipFlops - Black

Pose: MODEL POSES -  Martina for Season Story

White Blank Page

I feel like I haven't blogged in forever! So I wanted to do something brief, I've just been getting into so many shenanigans lately it's hard to keep up with it all! I'm starting to work on mesh more, so that means my work here has been suffering, and with mesh comes stress, and with stress comes a destressant or something, which has been hanging around Inka, who will now be writing with us here in the blog! HOORAY for that! I'm actually uber exciter for Inka joining in here and being my blogging partner, and just.. partner in everything, I love that girl's face, and i've also been rp'ing a little.. but.. never the less, I decided to share some more new goodies, some from collab, others are old things, others are just.. I love them and you'll have to deal okay? Good. 

So Lelutka, new hair, and it comes with a hat.. obviously the hat didn't go with the outfit, but I totally loved the hair, it has a very free flowing form, and even though the picture /is/highly/edited/ the hair is for sure worth going over and demo'ing it. I mean.. comes with a hat, come on! Then I totally love this suit from Ison.. it's totally adorable, and just.. so mainly in a feminine manner, I love the draping work and just.. amazing work. Then.. we have fri.day who re released a couple of heels of hers, and I'm just totally in love, I'm loving slink add on shoes now, guys, I thought I wouldn't but.. I have to admit, the look of them is just amazing. So.. that brings us to accessories, LaGyo is one of my favorite places for jewelry, it's eccentric, high fashion, and just me, and it's also affordable, this set, the one with the cuff, actually comes with an HUD that allows you to change the color of the pieces so you can match your cuff to the outfit, or just make a color palette that you enjoy. The tattoo is new, from Tenjin for the Acid Lily event, which basically is all new, and has a new line up, and I'm uber excited. The tattoo is in a mesh sleeve, so you don't have to have it repeat in both arms, I kind of loved that, to be honest, and it also has the tattoo option if you want it repeating. Finally we have accessories by Remarkable Oblivion, whom I love, duh! I believe the headband is free in a group gift, if you join the group, though it might have been taken down.. you'll have to check, but the group is free to join! That's it for today guys! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. 

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Sash 01 ~ light rose ~ for Collabor88

Hair: [LeLutka]-GOGO hair - Pitch *newish*

Headband: RO - Diable Band - GG 

Eyes: IKON Ascension Eyes - Gray

Freckles: [PXL] Face freckles Medium (tattoo 2.x)

Moles: Essences - Beauty Marks

Lipstick: ROZENA/ Juicy Tint(t) ~ nude

Tattoo: Tenjin - Fairy Princess Tattoo for Acid Lily 

Cuff: LaGyo_Helen bangles Gold - SET B for Collabor88

Vest: ISON - razzle vest (black) for Collabor88

Top: Maitreya Bodysuit de la Ruche - White

Pants: ISON - razzle pleated pants (black) for Collabor88

Pin: RO - Insignia - KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON - Purchase Container

Shoes: fri. - Jane.Heels (Black) *New*

Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Elegant 1 (Unpack)

Nails: *Fishy Strawberry* Slink Fingernails -Extreme French HANDS

Ring: LaGyo_Sasha ring gold

Pose: Del May - Flamingo fashionista

Disneybound: Daisy!

Just for the record, Daisy has got to be one of my least favorite Disney characters. She's so.... urgh, I don't even know how to describe it but like.. she's so naggy,I really really hate her. But.. Nat made the challenge, and I answered, okay?! Can't hate on me for doing it, it was hard, but.. well, there it is, Daisy and crap. I really hard a hard time finding something to go over the dress that was purlple and i liked it. Probably because I hate the color purple too. God, poor Daisy, I'm just bashing on her, and I'm probably getting a lot of Daisy lovers hating me right now but.. you have to admit, she's a biotch! What was Walt thinking!?

Anyways, I dug in the depths of my inventory, and had a back in time experience. I had a good friend in SL that left, and I got sad face. She owned Fishy Strawberry, and.. I miss her. We used to have so much fun together! Our children! Think of the children! But anyways, I'm still very happy thinking that she has moved on to better things in life, but.. I still think abut her every now and then, and well, with that.. I had to use this coat, I paired it off with pink and white shoes from a past Collabor88 season,and the mon tissu white dress, and.. of course, pearls. The skin is still from the same whisper pack.. this time in Anime color! I actually like it, it is pale, but it has a pink subtle tone that I love. So.. that's about it, Disneybound as Daisy. :/

Credits:

Skin: Essences - Whisper ~ anime ~

Hair: ISON - Leighton

Freckles: {.essences.} More Freckles

Eyes: IKON Ardent Eyes - Moor

Earrings: (Yummy) Pearl Earring 
Tattoo: !Fablab! Believe Tattoo

Necklace: *League* Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace 

Coat: *Fishy Strawberry* Fluffy Open Cardigan Purple 

Dress: {mon tissu} Frock Dress ~ White

Shoes: 「R2 fashion] "Kanaloa elua"- Pink and White stilettos

Pose: *[Starry Heaven]* Momo 5

I've Got This Friend

I've got this friend that every Monday morning makes memes! And I love doing it, mainly because my readers get a really good feel of who I am. This week it's all about questions, and well, I thought I'd try my best to answer them honestly, without offending anyone. There's so much drama around, sadly, and I suppose it's just a big part of SL, no matter where you go, but.. I want to have, no drama. I've got enough of that in RL. So.. on to it? I hope you guys actually enjoy reading these, I don't... know? But I think it's a good way for you to get to know the person the behind the pretty pictures.

How do you deal with criticism? In the past I wasn't the best with this, I'll admit. I got very easily offended, and got my feelings hurt. I mean, a big part of my change lately might be the medication I'm on that just makes me not give a crap, or maybe I've been through so much that I honestly don't care, but.. I handle it really well, I can separate it, and take it to fix and work on myself, if that makes sense? Like.. I don't take offense. And if you mean offense.. Honey, I don't care, but, I think this has actually helped me out a lot in my time in Second Life now, and allowed my blog and SL adventures to become more enjoyable. 

What’s the most infuriating thing other SL residents do? The constant attacking some people do. Specially on Plurk. Come on, it's getting old, really. I would understand if we were still in High School, but we're not. Most of you are actually in your thirties, I'm in my twenties, I mean.. come on. We should have moved past this years ago. 

Which SL resident would you most like to have lunch with and why? Easy, Strawberry Singh. I know, lame answer is lame! But she's a huuuuge part of why I became a blogger. For years I followed her blog and her growth, and I was too shy to do anything, but then I finally decided to start to learn photoshop, and follow her tutorials, and I started this, which has now overtaken my SL life and changed it. In a way, Berry made me guys. And she can destroy me. Kidding aside, she's been a huge inspiration to me, and I'd be honor to even spend a day around her. I'd probably start squealing if I did RL and my husband would look at me like I'm a loser. It's ok though, I am. 

Who would you say is your “anti” role model? Someone who serves as a warning rather than an inspiration? There's a few people. I'm not even going to say names, I don't want to get into it. But I've voiced myself against them, they know who they are. I don't backstab, I speak truthfully, I am not double faced, and I won't attack people for no reason. People that do that are my anti role models. 

What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you? Hm, I guess Roleplay. I used to enjoy rp'ing a lot, but there is so much competition with slutty girls that just want sex, that it just became an annoyance more than anything. I don't need to compete and try to count down how many more "sexings" I've had than you. It's sad. Trying to get attention through sex speaks very low. I'm sorry. I'm not going to compete in things like that, before I do, I'll leave. 

What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about? I.. honestly can't think of anything? I'd want to try being a kid av and getting adopted, but.. I see sometimes the secrets.. in the rare occassions that I do read them, and just.. I get heart broken that that's how some people treat their family. I believe in Ohana. Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind :D. 

What’s the oddest term of endearment you’ve ever used or that someone’s used for you? I call my RL husband Hunny Bunny! And I call my best friend in SL Cliopants. 

Have you ever fallen in love with another SL resident? Yes

Describe a time/event in your slife that you’re nostalgic for. Rp'ing in my first Harry Potter sim. It was sooooo much fun. 

What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Just a kind word will do. Stars in my flickr page also make me teary eye. Getting runner up on Hair Fair made me cry too. I don't know. I guess feeling like there's a sense of achievement does it for me. 

So.. for today, with all that typing.. and all that reading, keeping it short. One of my favorite stores in SL is Ison. I love Harry Hax so much, have since 5ever. And now he's making hair, so of course I squealed when i saw it, and I am wearing it forever. I also loved his little dress for Collab! So.. that's about it, I hope you guys like! 

Credits:

Skin: Essences Clover *Sunkissed*

Hair: ISON - Ruby Darks Pack (Ombre Look) for Hair Fair

Eyes: IKON Ascension Eyes - Evening

Freckles: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face) and Essences - Beauty Marks

Necklace: Noodles - Sketchy Flower Necklace Gold/Red for Collabor88

Purse: {mon tissu} Straw Tote Bag - Black

Glasses: [MAGIC NOOK] Golden Life Sunglasses (Natural) 

Dress: ISON - ruffle dress  - (teal)

Leggings: Izzie's - Leggings Black and silver

Shoes: HouseofFox :: JusticeWedges[Pattern Socks]

Pose1: !Bang F*S pack B1

Pose2: BENT. Lookbook 9

Follow Us

So... another week in the hospital, this is getting really old, but I'm finally back. Well, been back since yesterday, just took me a little because I really really wanted to do something good for this post! And I'm actually pretty happy. A lot of things have been happening. For one, HAIR FAIR. I love hair fair, and I was lucky enough to have one of my works selected to be displayed guys! And even though I didn't get to use my early pass for either hair fair bloggers, or my early pass for winning runner up, I am still so happy and humbled to be selected for both, so thanks to the Hair fair theme. And I still managed to shop.. over 20K worth in hair, trust, I'm a shopaholic when it comes to hair, but.. it's worth it guys, a percentage of your sales goes to Wigs for Kids, which also helps other kids with cancer .. well, have wigs! So I love this organization, and I have no problem on dropping a lot of cash to support! Make sure to go and check out Hair Fair this year. It's built in LEGOS. And it's amazing, they outdid themselves. Shame Truth wasn't there, and I don't even wanna know the story, so gossip starters, don't even! I also checked out collab, and that's where the rest of my linden went. Wops. But.. well, Aime actually gave me these cute little fairies, they're so adorable, and they make me cry every time I detach them.. because Aime is a very evil bunny filled with cuteness. I just can't. I wanted to do a follow through the forest kind of theme, reminds me a little of Sleeping Beauty.. following the glowing light to her doom! Except.. they're good fairies... I hope! So I also went to Maitreya and got the jeans.. because.. Maitreya has a sale, and they have the best jeans in grid, so I had to fat pack! All in all, a lot of shopping.

Oh.. yeah.. this skin? The newness of essences. It's so soft and adorable, Cho is a must if you are going for more of a youthful/soft look, or Asian. I went for youthful. And also, a plurker friend sent me these a long time ago, but.. I've been bad! So much going on, but.. doctor who nails. I'm a huuuuge fan of Doctor Who, so.. .yeah, I'm rocking these pretty often. The necklace is from Noodles ( <3 you Nat) and the shirt is from Milk Motion. All are available at Collab this round! Oh... and don't you love the eyes? Newness from Ikon. Sort of, just.. close up of them. Hope you enjoy guys! On to the credits!

Credits:

Fairies: *MishMish* Lil' Fairies (Amoriata, Girosham, and Lockmeth) for Collabor88

Skin: Essences ~ Cho skin ~ (Light Rose) for Collabor88

Hair: Clawtooth: Tootsie - Girl Next Door for Hair Fair

Eyes: IKON Ascension Eyes - Evening

Lashes: ::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - EyeLashes

Freckles:::dUTCH tOUCH:: AddOns - Moles and Xtra Freckles (face) and Essences - Beauty Marks

Necklace: Noodles - Sketchy Flower Necklace Gold/Red for Collabor88

Shirt: (Milk Motion) 3d flowers lace top - nude for Collabor88

Jeans: Maitreya Zipper-Skinny Jeans * M #2

Sandals: ISON - leather strap sandals (tan) for Collabor88 

Nail Appliers: !matte.doctor.who (SAE-nails) 

Pose for Picture 1: (marukin) [solstice] i've seen enough for Collabor88

Pose for Picture 2: [tea.s] say it ain't so

Blogger Challenge - SLDisney Bounding - Gaston

So, I said I might go back and do more of the past challenges to catch up, and I had to do Gaston. Beauty and the Beast is one of my favorite movies all of time, so.. Gaston was a bit of a challenge, to transfor such a manly character into a modern female version of it. Quite hard! But.. I managed it, and I even managed to use the new awesome gloves by R3VOLT. And a snarl, so Gaston. Did I mention I love Disney movies? This challenge is amazing, and I hope it goes on forever! And I'm also sharing this video because it's.. awesome.. if you got good credit you can be my wife! Girl, hide yo' kids.

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Zara - America 01 D

Hair: [Burley] Fashi Black01

Necklace: {mon tissu} Take Flight Necklace ~ Silver

Gloves: [R3VOLT] Red Studded Gloves Unisex [Mesh] Womens

Vest: ISON - belted fur vest (snow)

Tank: jane.intrinsic.tank.yw gold [full]

Shirt: JANE - layering tee.rd cherry

Leggings: {mon tissu} Favorite Wool Tights ~ Black 

Boots: *FIR & MNA* The Steinbeck Boots Tan

Pose: (marukin) [frais] dairy dreams

It's Innocence Lost

Collabor88 has arrived, and I couldn't be more excited about some of the items that are up for grab. Can I start with this little dress by Ison? I normally don't buy fat packs.. and I rarely wear red, but.. I love the dress, and the fly away theme, and the fact that you can change it completely by changing the top layer. And the glasses by Boom? New set of jewelry from Maxi Gossamer? Yes, please! If you haven't yet gone.. GO! What are you waiting for? I am completely insane about the new round of collabor88. Keep tune for more looks from Collabor88 to come!

Credits:

Skin: -Glam Affair - Zara - America 09 BL

Hair: [e] Away - Blonde 07 (discontinued) 

Glasses: *BOOM* Minimalist Glasses (Titanium) for Collabor88

Jewelry: MG - Necklace - Titania's Filigree heart for Collabor88

Dress: ISON - flight bodycon dress (red) for Collabor88

Bracelet: Noodles - Fairy Tale Charm Bracelet Gold

Shoes: [Gos] Boutique - Angelina Peeptoe - Black Python

Pose: (marukin) [rhodolite] into the view for Collabor88

The Fox in the Snow

I love this song.. and I love Belle and Sebastian. It's all about seeing what really is important.. and what's just so illogical, the resounding questions that make you rethink everything that is important to you.. and the importance of the simple things.. I love things that make me think like that.. once again making me feel grateful for the small things in life, rather than crying over the things that at that time seem so big.. and further down in life seem so trivial.

I wanted to be a fox in the snow today, or my vision of this song, I suppose. Something simple, against the vast snow.

I kept it very simple for this post just because of that. The top is really adorable, and it's from one of the new additions to Acid Lily which will be taken away this weekend, so make sure to stop and get it before it does go away! The dress is called Queen of Hearts, and it's in pink, gray, or multicolored. I kept it simple and at the same time wanted it to pop slightly with the background, so I grabbed the pink color. The dress is very simplistic, but at the same time, the way the texturing and shading is done is very cute! Though my only complain is that at times it didn't fit right with my ao, the very top of the torso didn't seem to flow too well for some reason, though in all honesty, it might have just been my ao.

I paired it off with the boots from ISON that are available today at 50L Friday, and also the Collabor88 D!va hair, this time without the mesh portion. In my opinion, it looks way cuter with just the bun. The same jewelry as yesterday, but instead of the yellow diamonds, just.. plain old white to go with the simplistic element today. And a pair of wool tights to tie it all together.

Credits:

Skin: Adam and Eve - Siobhan T2 Bare

Hair: ""D!va"" Hair "Asami" (Type B)(Topaz) for Collabor88

Jewelry: (Yummy) Teardrop Gemstone Set - Diamond for Collabor88

Dress: {Le Fil Casse} Queen of Hearts Dress in Pink for Acid Lily

Tights: {Mon Tissu} Favorite Wool Tights ~ Charcoal

Shoes: ISON - Classic Levander Ankle Boots (Desert)

Pose: (Marukin) [Lotus] Candied for Collabor88

Did You Realize I'm a Bitch Every Time?

I can't believe that Gossip Girl is already over! No! I was growing up with them.. slightly.. Ok.. Ok.. not really, but Jesus! It makes me feel old. First Harry Potter ends, now Gossip Girl, and Dexter next season, and Weeds is over. DAMN YOU TV! STOP MAKING ME FEEL OLD! And in an ode to Gossip Girl and a last fare well to Blair and Serena, and Lonely Boy and Dorota.. I got inspired for this post by one of my favorite songs that GG introduced to me, B.I.T.C.H by Plastiscines. Someone please bring GG back! D:
PS: I still can't believe Lonely Boy did it. If you watched it, you will know exactly what I'm saying! GAH!

So, back to the real world, or virtual world, rather. Today I went for once again a more punky style. Now, if  any of you know me, you know that I'm crazy about Hello Kitty! Seriously! I have a Hello Kitty head set! And PJ's. And I had my bathroom Hello Kitty while single.. Ok.. well, I was still in Junior High at that time, but it did happen! Anyways, Barbie Bitch has this tank top that is just extremely adorable! My only complaint is that the base mesh part is so small that you have to rezz the shirt, while wearing the other, and right click and to a texture refresh on it so that the texture loads on the one you're wearing. I'd be much easier if they were mod so you can rezz the tank and make it bigger, so that the reading of the texture can go through and you can see the texture on it perfectly (thanks Tyr [Auxiliary] for these tips). Other than that, I'm totally in love with this collection. Paired it off with jeans, and some boots from ISON, and some accessories from Cute Poison, and now I totally look the part of a bitch.

Also.. newness from Lelutka, I'm wearing the Pocahontas hair, which is amazing for photo effects since it's so flowing. It comes with the jewelry set for it too! And on top of that, free gift from celoe and Lelutka this holiday season, make sure to pick it up! Will be blogged about tomorrow!

Credits:

Skin: LAQ ~ Essential Saga - Tone 1.5
Hair: [LeLutka]-POCAHONTAS hair - Pitch
Glasses: Cute Posion: ShadZ - POISON - Classic
Necklace: Cute Poison - Bitch Necklace
Tank Top: <<BarbieBitch>> CuteNess Tank -Hello Kitty II
Jeans: {Mon Tissu} Denim - 1929 Cigarette ~ Gray 1
Boots: ISON - carazon boot - black
Pose:  (PDA) for P.C. II (Closing at the End of December)
          aDORKable Poses: 19 of 25 2012 (Below, free for advent Christmas)